I'm never ill.

"We should always let tomorrow take care of itself, for today has troubles enough of its own."

I feel so restless.
Sana man lang...

It has been this way ever since.

My day started out fine. Almost as normal as it has been.. Everything was going on soo smoothly but then again, Kyla, the unluckiest girl at everything, saw something so wrong that even the slightest drop of Felix Felicis (a potion that would surely help you out at anything and would make you have the perfect day ever. Of course, from the book, Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince.) won't make her feel any closer to joy, happinees, contentment and all that crap.

Yes. I look "happy". I act as if nothing's happening. Ha. Ha. Well, as you can see, I'm quite good at acting and you all believe to the fact that I'm really happy.

Oh! Kyla's hella funny.
Kyla's fun.
Kyla's F-U-N!

Sure Dudes.
If you only knew..

If she only knew.

One stupid Kyla on the go!

Isa tong malabong pangyayari..

Sa araw na ito na ginawa ng Diyos. Inakala kong wala akong dalang pera. Ako'y nagulumihanan at nakaramdam ng matinding natakot. Kumukulo na ang tiyan ko at sa loob, meron akong naramdaman na matinding pagnanasa sa kahit anong bagay na pwedeng kainin.. Nagisip ako ng gagawin, naghanap ng pwedeng makain pero sa kabila ng mga baliw na tao sa paligid ko, natanaw ko ang isang ideya. Ako'y UMUTANG. (oh yess.. umutang ako. ) Dala ng aking pagaka-desperado isinigaw ko sa buong mundo, "Sinong may 50 pesos sa inyo? pautang.." Walang kahit isang kaluluwa ang tumingin. Subalit, sa gilid ng aking mga mata.. nakita ko siyang may hinuhugot sa kanyang bulsa. Kinabahan ako at wala ng nagawa kung hindi tumingin na lng sa kanya. Gamit ang aking kabobohan. Tinitigan ko sya. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin. Naguluhan. Pero sa loob ko, nagpapasalamat ako sa Diyos dahil ginawa niya ang babaeng ito at dinala sa mundo. Finally, mukhang mareresolba na ang problema ng tiyan ko.

Pero pagkatapos ng lahat, gamit-gamit ang kabobohan ko. Tinanggihan ko ang pera na iniabot nya.. haaay.. kalabuan ng buhay nga nmn.

Tae.

People are busy.

I think it's really weird to think that people spend too much time on things that don't really matter. Labo.

Hay. Everyone's busy right now. Probably, cramming! That damn History Brochure Project really got into their nerves. Good luck guys. I'm proud to say,
I'M DONE WITH MY BROCHURE!
Well.. I started doing it last week. Ha. Ha. I'm so proud.

Things wondered about today.

Hey! Read my poem down there, if you wanna feel stupid 'cause you followed what I said.

Anyways, I don't know if I'm seeing the right things. Or.. If I'm just hallucinating. It looks soo impossible but dude.. It's happening right before my eyes. haaaaaaaay.. The thing is, I don't understand everything. I'm not a smart girl but I'm pretty sure that I'm one
SEXY HOT MOMMA!
Hahahahaha!! :))

Ang saya nung fieldtrip. grabe.

Malabong Nararamdaman

Sa gitna ng lahat nagisip ako
Totoo ba ito o sadyang malabo
Itong malabong nararamdaman ko
Isang pakiramdam na para sayo

Sa gitna ng luha nakita kita
Umiiyak ka sa gitna ng saya
Hindi ko matiis na makita ka
Makita kang payak at nagiisa

Sa gitna ng kaguluhang matindi
Sigaw ng pagibig sayo ititimpi
Marinig mula sa iyong mga labi
Na ngayon ay katulad lang ng dati

Sa gitna nitong bihirang ulan
Nais kong makita ka't mahagkan
Lahat ng ito ating pagninilayan
Para sayo ako'y laging nandyan

Sa gitna ng sakit aking natanto
Hindi pala totoo ang mga ganito
Hindi lahat magiging malabo
Seryoso ako at ndi naglalaro

Sa gitna ng uno at ng tatlo
Bigla kong naisip "Ano ba ito?"
Itong pagibig na nararamdaman ko
Para sayo nga't hindi malabo

Can't think of any title.

The field trip was
THE BEST!
Wait.. I can't actually say the whole thing was really great, but maybe just a few. The trip back to St. Paul was one of the best things that happened to me yesterday. DUDE! Party at the back of the bus. We acted like extremely crazy party animals. You name it, we've done it. (ok. let me break it down, wholesome things. ok?) HAHA! It was sooo funneh. We were dancing with the every beat of the song, doing very exotic seductive moves and kita panty ko. HAHA! My shorts were very loose. People were shouting.. "PANTY MO!!!" and after a few more shouts they stopped. They got used to my green colored panty slipping out of my shorts. (this subject is pointless) Anyways.. All I can say is, that trip back home was the climax of the filed trip for me. I was so exhausted but I indeed enjoyed.

In the museum. :))



kasama dapat ako. pero ako ng-take ng pic. :|

it's hard to say by the used.

the singer finished singing and she's walking out
the singer sheds a tear fear of falling out
and it's hard to say how i feel today
our years gone by, and i cry

it's hard to say that i was wrong
it's hard to say i miss you
since you've been gone it's not the same

my worries weigh the world how i used to be
and everything in cold seems a plague in me
and its hard to say how i feel today
our years gone by, and i cry

it's hard to say that i was wrong
its hard to say i miss you
since you've been gone it's not the same
it's hard to say i have my

it's hard to say if only
since you've been gone it's not the same

words that i fear is the lie i told a thousand times before
words that i fear is the night
but it's hard to say how i feel today
our years gone by, and i cry

it's hard to say that i was wrong
it's hard to say i miss you
since you've been gone it's not the same
it's hard to say i have my tongue
it's hard to say if only
since you've been gone i'm not the same
it's hard to say (god it's hard to say)
since you've been gone, i'm not the same

I hate bizzare blog entries.

I haven't been deliberately expressing my true feelings lately and it's not a good sign.

ANYWAYS,
Reasons why I am happy:
1. Something.
2. Something.
3. Fieldtrip tomorrow.
4. Homeworks are all on hold.
5. Something.
6. B. Board is finally done and it looks soooooo.. amazing. :)
7. Biome class project is done and it was the best. :)

Ok. It don't seem like happy stuff. But look at it this way.. Mind yer own life and I'll mind my own. ok?

Fieldtrip na bukas. sana.....

So deep.

PUMAYAT DAW AKO!!
Yeah boy!

sabi yun ni:
Robyn
Kim Shin Hye
Aprille

Feel soo.. High. I just finished doing the ice-cream look alike mountains for the ever demanding biome class project. yihee. and I'm happy cause life is a warfare. weh?!

Just a memory. :(

July 14-15, 2005
So happy. So high.

July 16, 2005
So hurt. So stressed.

July 17, 2005
So confused. So down.

July 18, 2005
So embarassed. So ashamed

ANYWAYS.. Here's a tagalog poem I made. It's in tagalog. So expect tagalog words. Take note. Tagalog. (So, what's my point?! Labo.)

Sa Bawat Patak Ng Ulan

Ikaw ang tao na madaling mahalin
Ikaw ang tao na mahirap sagapin
Pag-ikot ng mundo aking pipigilin
Upang pagkatao ko'y iyong tanggapin

Magmahal ka man sa iba'y wala na rin
Saktan, apihin man ang aking damdamin
Matinding pasakit aking papasanin
Sigaw ng puso't damdamin iyong dinggin

Oh pag-ibig, dulot mo'y hapdi at pagod
Puso'y hindi makahinga't makaabot
Tunog ng hangin nais kong marinig
Isang kalayaang di man lang madakip

Hanapin man ang saya na iyong taglay
Tinig mong dala nagdudulot ng lumbay
Sa buhay kong ito ikaw lang ang kulay
Ang pagibig ko sayo'y walang kapantay

Bawat patak ng ulan kasama ako
Naglalaro sa ilalim ng pangako
Nakagapos ako sayong mga kamay
Naghihintay sa wala ng walang humpay

How?

How would you know if I'm talking about the same issue or another?

Simple. Ask me.

I don't know if I have the right to interfere with the issue. But I'm deeply bothered and I feel that its my fault. (uy. napapaisip sya, as if nmn binabasa nya toh) I mean, I can be a part. But when you think of it real hard, I'm really not a part of it. Epal kung baga. Like what a little birdie told me.. I'm not even close to any of 'em. So that hardens the fact that I should not be a part of the issue. (Nagiisip na talga oh!) And.. there are "other" people concerned that I know nothing of. So, ewan. I feel like if I say something about the issue or make a statement, they'll think I'm like so epal.

ARRGGH! I hate issues! :{

Mga Asawa ko. :)

Yeah. These guys will marry me. soon enough.
WAHA! In yer dreams Kyla!

Anyways, last night. I slept at about 1 in the morning. Yeah. I tried composting a song. Naks! Trying hard.

One-sided stuff is CRAP!

Everything is now falling apart.
So, let's all just smile.
"POP!"

When will it be me, again?

Ok. For some ugly reason.. I feel very much irritated. Don't even ask. I mean. URGH!! :{

Anyways, I'm soo loaded with homework! as in tambak talaga. And I have to do everything. kasi sabi ng Diyos. Then one simple text ruined my insides even more. urgh. :|

Pop, salamat at nagparamdam ka.

Me and apes. (down)

A one-sided thing.

"Here I am once again. I'm torn into pieces."

Oh yes. There was a sudden turn of events. One text can change the destiny of yer life and I tell you, one happy thought can never be true if it's not a give and take relationship. Bsta. It's a one-sided thing that most paulinians feel with their current crushes. And sadly, I feel the same. Hay nako..

Ikaw! Ms. Fallout Girl. Matamaan ka nga. joke. :}

So HAPPY and Exhausted.

Yeah. If running out in the field (playing patintero), sitting with our butts lay flat on the floor for hours, listening to such "boring" speeches and lectures, making this HUGE nametags and organizing loquacious leaders are what you call exhausting, well you might as well consider me as one of the most exhausted person around the world right now. ok. ok. I know I'm really exagerating. But hey! my entire (sexy hot) body is aching right now and I'm having a really bad case of the "I-want-to-sleep-but-I-can't-'cause-im-so-happy" disease.. (ano daw?!) hihi!

Well, on top of it all.. I still feel very very happy!! :) God knows how happy I am today. Haaaaaaaaaay.

Sana araw araw ganito. :)

2nd post of the day

Im so damn happy today!
Every bit of bliss is seeping through my bodeh right now!
Golleh!
Hulaan niyo kng bakit!

Ahh.. ano nga ba?!
ANG HOT NI MISS ESPIRITU!
ngreply si SIR AL!
nag-ano si ano. :)
Yihee. yuck. kinilig daw.

Read my poem below!! I made it at cheryl's high-tech car. :)

My Fallout Girl

She was singing the wrong set of notes (haha!)
She was enjoying those one-sided boats
I was hoping to see her trip or fall
But no, I was wrong she was perfect at all

She was trying to catch those invisible thoughts
I was laughing so hard, I know, I thought
She played the games too hard, too strong
She's got those cunning eyes. I can't stare too long

I can not find the words to say
She's now a part of my every day
It's fortunate to see she's not that away
She's just strolling there around the bay

It's hard to say the same words again
Cause I know It will be the same end
She's the one and she's "it" for sure
She's so impossible, She's my fallout girl.

I Just Can't Seem To Get Away

another stupid poem.. read on.

I'm tired of asking for nothing more
I'm tired of running on the same floor
My world is wrecked and torn into pieces
I'm tired of love and hopeful wishes

I'm tired of judgement of character
I'm tired of life and its feeble matter
I'm tired of dreaming without success
I'm tired of cleaning the same mess

I'm tired of raging and swelling inside
It's now my time to set things aside
I'm tired of caring on someone who don't
I'll try and pass by but I think I just won't

After everything I did, is this where I'll go?
After everything YOU did, I'll just let go
It's never right to cling on someone who's vague
I've got my life messed up, It'll be just late

I've ruined myself to see what's it like
Now I'm trying to change, I think I might
I hate to think YOU'RE the one I regret
But right now I just do and now I'll forget

I try to breathe in of this small space
A jail-like life ending without a trace
Now with such power I'll express and say
I want to forget you and I can't get away

On the plus side.

Our class is the BEST class ever. (ok. I'm exagerating)
But look.. We had this practical test in Music where every group was required to change the tune of one nursery rhyme and sing it to class. Guess what?! Every group got a perfect score. We are damn good. (I'm proud of it) Miss said we were the best.. so far. wahaha! Well, we sang twinkle twinkle star. We played with the melody and it sounded makulit. haha! I was soooo hyper. (as usual) So, everyone were laughing. Damn..

Well, at least something good happened in this almost-perfect day.

"...Lost, vaded, broken, dead within an hour.
- William Shakespeare

cheryl and the day she said goodbye!

weh?! imbento ng title.
anyways.. we took some pictures today! im gonna post it soon enough.
Im sooo hot.
Weh?! asa pa..

Guys.. Anyone of you know "Miss Rated R"?
If you know her.. YOU ARE GOING TO DIE!
Haha! Well, only robyn knows about her. Diba robyn kahit ndi mo binibisita blog ko. :|
And wait. today's like the funnest day ever.

She said............. toot.
Uy! Ano un?!!?!
cge hula!

Don't fu*k with my heart.

Mery got me yesterday. I mean, she really fooled me and if she'll do it again, I'll kick the wind out of her butt. Wahaha. She was having hella fun and I was there still adjusting to the fact that she joked me. Yeah, I really fell for that. But who won't get scared or even worried if your friend tells you that she's ... something. (I don't know if i can say it) Well, it was pretty funny. The expressions I made, the freaky words that meant nothing.. Haha! Lalang. I just wanna share how Mery got me and how she made me feel sooooo.. worried. hihi. ;)

See yah guys.
To all 2nd year - Room 7:
Don't forget to bring recyclable stuff for our bulletin board!
THANKS!

click the pic para mas clear. :)

"cold"

ok. some people are treating me coldly. as in cold. gets? kng ndi.. ANAK NG!

wait. i mean, i feel like im not doing anything to help. bsta.. matamaan ka. :) JOKE! bsta. insecure kng baka.. and the fact that we're .... makes it worse.

bsta.

i-gets niyo na lng. :)

Bizzare.

Isa toh sa mga moments na wala na lng akong masabi..

Setting: naguusap sa upuan. Naghihintay ng teacher.

Taong nagtatanong: Nagmahal ka na ba?
Kyla: Oo naman.
Taong nagtatanong: Ahh.. ako din.
Kyla: Iba noh.. parang ang saya ng lahat.
Taong nagtatanong: Oo naman!
(very very odd silence)
Kyla: naks naman. Sino syo?
Taong nagtatanong: Si toooooot.. kaw?
Kyla: ..........uh.. (nagiisip kng pwede talagang sabihin)
Taong nagtatanong: (mukhang may masamang balak) Si Elise noh.
Kyla: (nag-blush ng todo at sinapak na lng si taong nagtatanong)

Wala lng. Naisip ko lng na.. kalat pala un. At..
Talagang nagba-blush ako. :))

Pretty much inlove.

Dudes..

Hey guys.. Nothing much happened today!
Well, I'm at Cheryl's house right now and it's hella fun!

I kinda like saying "hella fun" a lot right now.. hihi. ;)

Go Figure.

2nd.

Sometimes, when you've fixed things back to normal and you're now very satisifed with what you have, certain issues will still find it's way to destroy it.. The pain, the grudge and the jealousy. This happens in every kind of relationship. Either with your friends, loved-ones, or just the so-so ones.. I don't know. But somehow, these issues will always try to cheat you and it's not good to lean on them.

I can't explain it.

Just I've realized that.. it's not enough dictating to yourself that you've moved on, you have to FEEL it.

Paos na ako sa kakaiyak.
what?! pwede ba un?!

happy virthday!

Hey! to you..
Miss girl-that's-real-close-to-being-perfect!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Hope you'd be happy with yer life and that you'll find the right one for you!
We love you!

Weh! "we" pa linagay.. pero "i" nmn talga gusto.

2nd of the day.

My love is gonna celebrate her birthday soon. naks nmn!! anyways..

NOT keeping track of things is never a good habit. But if you constantly keep track of things, you'll just go hysterical and before you know it, you're there alone, biting every nail and trying to figure out which nail tastes best. :|

To you:
I hate you. :)

To you:
GO TO HELL! :)

matamaan guilty...

Very ewan.

i WAS happy when my day started, but as the events transpire before my very eyes, my feelings suddenly changed from being relieved to a very bitter sense of annoyance. It's a damn long story.. but it taught me to be very vigilant in my every action. ewan.

Wait, there's one good thing that happened today.
"I couldn't stop staring at you while you were sleeping"

One of my classmates said that and it hit me REAAL hard. (in a gooood way) It was one of the sweetest lines I've ever heard. I mean, it may seem very senseless to you but it really brings out the taste of sweetness inside my mouth. I just see the line expressing so much LOVE and passion.. damn. Staring at a person for the longest time and not getting bored at any point, is what I call LOVE. I know that I know nothing about love, but I know it when it's love. I can sense it. And it's really a great experience to feel love.

Haha! Sorry dudes. In love eh.. :)