Be. My. Escape

Cause I've been housing all this doubt and insecurity and I've been locked inside that house. All the while you hold the key. And I've been dying to get out and that might be the death for me
And even though, there's no way in knowing where to go. I promise I'm going because
I gotta get outta here. Cause I'm afraid that this complacency is something I can't shake. I gotta get outta here...

And I'm begging you, I'm begging you, I'm begging you to be my escape..

Hindi ko gets.

One Question

Poprocks and Coke
By Greenday

Wherever you go, you know i'll be there. If you go far, you know i'll be there. I'll go anywhere, so i'll see you there. You name the place, you know i'll be there. You name the time, you know i'll be there. I'll go anywhere, so i'll see you there. I don't care if you don't mind. I'll be there not far behind. I will dare. Keep in mind, I'll be there for you. Where there's the truth, you know i'll be there. Amongst the lies, you know i'll be there. I'll go anywhere, so i'll see you there. If you should call, you know i'll be there. To catch the fall, you know i'll be there. I'll go anywhere, so i'll see you there..

Still Cracking Up

If you're asking how far have I gone with my labreport?
The answer is...

nowhere.

Please. Help? :'(

Cracking Up

Hanggang kailan ako maghihintay na makasama kang muli sa buhay kong puno ng paghihirap. Tanging ikaw lang pumapawi sa mga luha at naglalagay ng ngiti sa mga labi."
- Hanggang Kailan by Orange ang Lemons

[t.h.r.e.e.]

Crap. I still need to do that so-epal lab report. I Hate it. I don't even know how to start it. I'm not as smart as you are. Arrrgggh!

Ang gulo gulo na ng buhay ko.

hello

hello. ayan ka na naman. pinapahiya mo na naman ako. nahihiya na nga ako eh. pero eto ako.. parang walang nangyayari. naka-smile pa rin. ang hirap ngang isipin na ganito na pla ako. pero.. ewan. bahala na nga. ganyan naman palagi kapag sa akin eh. laging kamalasan. laging nasasaktan. laging inaaapi. WEH?

hello. ayan ka na naman. dumadaan sa harap ko. parang wala ako. parang hangin na nandyan pero hindi nakikita. nandyan nga pero hindi pinapansin. alam ko namang ganun na lng lagi. bawat galaw nya.. alam ko. pero ikaw? alam mo ba? ndi. ok lng.. ako din eh. ha? ang labo mo pare.

hello. ayan ka na naman. ginugulo mo naman buhay ko. dinadagdagan ang mga problemang tambak tambak na. sinasaktan ako. pero ok lng.. diba nga. dinadaan ko na lng sa pagka-hyper. hay nako.. ang yabang mo kasi.

hello. ayan ka na naman. pinasaya mo na naman ako ngayon. lagi namang ganyan eh. salamat pare. grabe ka na talga. parang bawat galaw mo napapawi ang pagod at hirap na nararamdman ko. hay.. salamat ulit dun.

hello. ayan ka na naman. naiingit ako sayo. parang lahat ng bagay pwede mong gawin. lahat ng bawal sa akin, pwede syo. bkit ganun? pareho lng nmn tayo ng pinagdaanan.. ang daya talaga.

hello. ayan ka na naman. pinasaya mo rin ako ngayon. oo. SOBRA. sana nga lng alam mong pinasaya mo ako. sana lng....

MGA TAO:
iba't ibang tao yang mga yan. ok? ndi lng isa. kung isa lng yan.. baliw ako.

Simula Ng Tumahan

Paggalaw ng mundo hindi maiiwasan
Kailangan tanggapin mga bagay na ganyan
Sa kabila ng lahat dapat itanto
Nandito lng kami, Aileen, para sayo

Huwag sisihin sariling puso
Kung ikaw naman tapat at totoo
Hayaang lumipas mga bagay na toh
Umasa ka kami'y nandyan sasalo

Ngayo'y ika'y sawi at sadyang naghihirap
Nakikita sa mukha mga tanda ng iyak
Lubos kong naisip at naiintindihan
Tama na, Aileen. Simulan ng tumahan

Aming kaibigan iyong tandaan
Lahat ng bagay ating malalampasan
Basta't maniwala sa pagibig ng Diyos
Lahat ng bagay unti-unting aayos

I Give Up... Still

Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na.Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na.Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na.Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na.Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na.Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na.Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na.Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na. Ayoko na.

Diba nga sabi ko sayo..
OK LANG!!

I Give Up.

Last week I had the strangest dream. Everything was exactly how it seemed. Where there was never any mystery of who shot John F. Kennedy. He was just a man with something to prove, slightly bored and severly confused. He steadied his rifle with his target in the center and became famous on that day in november..

Hindi pa niya nababasa.. hmm.
That's good. hihi. :D

Hay nako.

Another day for me to waste. It SUCKS bigtime, my dear. Ang hirap ng buhay kng walang gagawin. So boring..

And because I'm bored. I'm going read Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince for the nth time.. I finished the book weeks weeks before. Guys, read it. Lots of new and SUPRISING stuff.

And still... Harry rocks my heart. <3

Ikaw.

Para sayo, babaeng kasama ko sa LAHAT ng problema ko last year. Alam kong wala ka ng paki pero.. WALA LNG.

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut, my weakness is that I care too much, my scars remind me that the past is real, I tear my heart open just to feel..

Drunk and I'm feeling down and I just wanna be alone. I'm pissed cause you came around. Why don't you just go home? Cause you channel all your pain and I can't help to fix myself. Your making me insane..

I tried to help you once. A kiss will only vise. I saw you going down. But you never realized that your drowning in the water. So I offered you my hand, Compassions in my nature. Tonight is our last dance..

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut, my weakness is that I care too much, my scars remind me that the past is real, I tear my heart open just to feel..

I can't help you fix yourself, But at least I can say I tried, I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life, I can't help you fix yourself, But at least I can say I tried, I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life..

Note sa nagbabasa:
Ano.. Akala mo ikaw noh? Hindi ikaw yan. Iba yan. Ako rin naguguluhan eh. LABO MO, KYLA. :|

Ewan ko.

Hindi mo sinabi, pero may nagsabi, gusto yata kasama ka palagi, pero ewan ko, ewan ko.. Naubos na ang pera sa kakalakwacha, gusto yata palagi kang kasama, pero ewan ko, ewan ko.. Napapansin mo rin yata, nakakhiya naman, gusto lang naman kitang titigan..

Napapalingon sa tuwing ika'y dumadaan., Napapangiti, hindi ko alam ang dahilan. Alam kong di pwede maging tayo, pero minsan nag iiba ang ikot ng mundo..

Sus maryosep, hindi na ako sumabet, napahiya na, hindi na makalapet, pero ewan ko, ewan ko.. Pero napapansin mo rin yata, nakakahiya naman, gusto lang naman kitang titigan..

Napapalingon sa tuwing ika'y dumadaan, Napapangiti, hindi ko alam ang dahilan.

To You

You are a lie I've heard before
You ruined me and what I've worked for
I thought I was ready to see you again
But now I'm just sure it was our end

"I want you guys back" << Another lie
We won't fall again even if you'll try
You're a hopeless lie I've heard before
The pain persistently swells as I see you more

Your pride reached the ceilings beyond heaven
Don't you see you've been that again?
You're the snake that crawls on your dead face
You're that worst miscreant I've seen in this race

You're still the lie I've heard before
I now despise you much much more
I wish God will punish you for the things you've done
And you'll think of us all you hurt on the long run

2 bruises

The Linggo Ng Wika celebration was..
GREAT.
Oh yeah. It was, I'm proud to say, well done and very much organized. All those sleepless nights (weh?), crammed meetings (yeah.), constant shouting really paid off.

Boy, am I just glad that's done.

One or two things went wrong, though. The pabitin fell..
WHILE I WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF IT.
The result? I've got 2 FREAKING BRUISES in the middle of my face. (--")
Ain't that just unfortunate?

Next, Cheryl and Abe's Linggo Ng Wika "party" got all bad. All their unsensitive classmates were pasaway. Too bad.. They've sucked all the bad luck present in this world. :'(

ANG SAKIT NG PASA KO.

Depressed, as usual.

Others may have their excuses but I have my reasons why.




I'm a sucker for your lucky, pretty eyes."

Having Journalism Classes

As always, Kyla is being mistreated by fate. She is now facing so many misfortunes and bad luck. The earth can officially swallow her and keep her away forever.

I know Elise's perfect day philisophy works. But I have my own philosophy...

A day that starts good will end being one of your best days. But if you start the day waking up on the wrong side of the bed, it'll end the worst.

WALA LANG.

By the way, we are now here in the multimedia having classes. We are communicating with our teacher through chat. St. Paul has now gone hi-tech..

NAKO.

Bakit ganun ang ugali ng mga tao? Minsan nagtataka na lng ako. Meron naman silang pagkakataon na lumakad sa tamang daanan. Pero bakit pa rin nila pinipili maging masama? Sana lahat ng tao katulad mo.. Ndi mayabang. Hindi papansin. Parang anghel na nahulog galing langit. Sana lahat ng tao katulad mo.. Marunong makinig. Magaling Magpayo. Parang lahat ng klase ng problema napagdaanan mo na. Sana lahat ng tao katulad mo.. Masaya kasama. Hindi mahirap intindihin. Parang lahat ng gusto ko sa isang kaibigan na syo na. Sana lahat ng tao katulad mo.. Walang bahid ng kamalian sa sistema. Hindi marunong manakit. Tipong nasa lupa pa lang santo na.. Parang ang perfect mo.

Sana merong tao na katulad mo. Sana magkakatotoo ka. Sana.

Bed of Roses.

Las night was the best mass I've ever had. Everything felt so right. First, lots of people we're present. When I say "lots of people", I mean every person who rarely attends the mass were there, alive and back on track. The Vatican room was literally FULL. I can"t believe my eyes. Next, there were 5 guys who, I think, are cute. Each had one thing that caught my attention. Their names are.. uh. Wait, I don't know any of their names. Haha. But I have codenames for them: Mr. Community Guy 1, Mr. Community Guy 2, Mr. Guitar Guy, Mr. Holy One, And June. Yes, I know, they are weird names and I don't want to talk about it, (Because I don't see the point in talking about these guys). Next, MAY.. Oh yess. May is back from being undetected. For the third time, I heard her say the admonition (Admonition = the invitation to listen to the reading). She mentioned a really nice saying.. "There are answers so simple that we find it hard to believe them". I agree, May. Next, last night, I was wearing the best outfit. I can't describe the look, but it was sure was amazing. It's just very unfortunate that I didn't have the chance to take a picture. Ha. Ha. The gospel was the best too. I had so many realizations on my mind, to the point that I was on the verge on getting the microphone. And it was rare that I had the "wanting" to share.

I know you don't think it was a very good mass. But hey! Every mass is a celebration. It is the celebration of God's words. Don't say I'm being holy but I really like masses. I love listening to the gospel. So, don't budge.

Wonderwall By Catpower

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now, you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way i do about you now

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me
After all, you're my wonderwall

Backbeat the word is on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way i do about you now

Sana.

Ang sarap siguro ng buhay
Kung ikaw ang kaakbay

Pero..

Nakita ko sa letratong wala kulay
Siya ang gusto mong karamay

-=(",)=-

Anyways, bago ako ma-nose bleed dito sa kakadrama.. Gusto kong malaman niyong lahat na SEATMATE KO SI GINELLE. diba Ginelle?! Haha! Wala nang issue toh mga pare. Ok na ako. (Anong ibig nung sabihin, ate Kyla?) Basta. Tawa lng kami ng tawa.
Kasama si Aprille. Wala lng.

Tapos..

Ang daming binalik na test papers. And so far.. Wala pa namang bagsak. Hahaha! PERO, isang malaking PERO.. Sa Physical Education.. Hulaan niyo score ko. PRACTICAL TEST un ng Balinese dance. My score is... 79 over 80, baby! I am so proud. Oh yess. Sumakit ang balakang ko dun.

Thank You, Lord.

Today has...

A long long story,
I'd rather not tell..

Miss Starshine

Sinabi kong wala
kahit meron pa rin.
Katangahan. :|

Pero.. tignan mo.
Mas maganda naman yun
kesa namang sabihin kong
meron pero wala naman talaga.
Oh dba?

Hindi eh.
Tanga ka pa rin.

Let you down

Can you not see?
What I'm trying to be
This is not me
To God I pray thee.

Now, I am dead
These thoughts unlead
Built by my pride
I try to hide

Well, I'm still here
Supressing my fear
Oh yeah. I am here
Waiting for you, dear

But the world is round
I see you by the curb
I'm fine with your frown
And I can't let you down

A simple "Hello!" would be nice.

In fairness. Things are brigthening up right now.
I've done almost everything I need to do and I think I'm going back on track.
And one more thing, this thing is starting make itself look like one hell of a big joke. Oh yezz. :)

Deep inside, in this heart of mine..
I have to go on wishing 'till it's time.

Mahaba toh.

An entry about our field trip
last July 22, 2005
Wala lang...

It was that blessed day when every bit of tension inside us gradually faded. It was a day of feverish excitement waiting for the girls of II - 7.

One day before the fieldtrip we (II - 7) were all cramming for this biome class project. We stayed at school until 7 pm and we still got homework and quizzes tailed on our tracks. It was really not in our system to go out on a sunny day and hike. But then, the scent of flowers that filled the tranquil air, the sound of lovebirds that serenaded our ears and the scenic views that taunted our senses, brought out the vigorous side of each. If you were feeling gloomy and restless, you'd be out of place. It was like a party in the woods. Well, it wasn't really the woods, more of like a zoo with lots of tress. So there, the Lakbay people (facilitators) brought us to this place where we'd find different kinds of eagles. These eagles are the pride of the Philippines. They look so cool and it's nice to know that we had the opportunity to at least, see them. We weren't really aloud to make such noises for the eagles might go ballistic on us. But that didn't hinder us from enjoying ourselves and at the same time not making too much of a commotion. We found one, two, three ways to turn the woods into one big jaunt. Then after filling our ears with the eerie sound of silence, we did a 2-hour "trek" around Mount Makiling. It wasn't, in any way, a strenuous activity for all we had to do was walk, jump, switch rocks and even run. With this ahead of us, being typical paulinians, we'd get bored. And so, around the trees and some free-flying animals, we sang songs. Impromptu songs, may I say. It was so hysterical. For example:

Going down this very steep hill
I remember how you chocked that pill
My butt now hurts and I'm ready to fall
Hey mister wood, let's go for a stroll.

So there, the supposedly educational trip turned out to be a big laugh trip. We didn't follow the right schedule and the facilitators are getting weary. We hurried and got some scars but still we were very eager to finish the "trek". After the so-called trek, we got into our respective buses and changed our clothes. We were all starved and eating our "baons" satisfied our stomachs like no other. With our tummies replenished, we were, once again ready to explore. Our next stop was a vintage resort somewhere there in Laguna. It wasn't any other kind of resort, with the swimming pools, kids running around, people sun bathing and noisy lounges. It had pools that resemble a hot spring. It was so warm and so much refreshing. For people who exhausted themselves with the day's event, those hot-spring-like pools were heaven. But then, too much of anything is never good. So, as the time passed by the pool got hotter and hotter. One by one people left the pool and only a few (including me) were left there in the pool enjoying its warmth. After a few more laps (weh? Olympics? Hihi.) and games with my fellow classmates, we decided that it was time to go back to the changing rooms.

So....

The trip back home was usually the sleeping time for those tired people. But now, we changed everything; it was the climax of the trip! We really partied inside the bus and danced to every beat of the song. No one was sleeping and everyone was, surprisingly, in high spirits. Ah bsta! To cut things short, we got back to St. Paul with so much bliss and excitement in our hearts. No one got out of the bus without a smile on their faces and it was, really, one of the best fieldtrips I ever had. It was truly memorable.

We, the Epapelas.

The avid days are starting to arrive
In this placid cycle we call life
The vivid sense of togetherness
Seeps through our heart, the Epapelas

Were just ordinary people with average wishes
We love silly games and hate broken promises
We always treat each other as a sister, as a friend
If you perceive us together, youll join us as well

The closeness we have is more than you know
Were competent enough for our love to grow
Outstanding in our group the distinct care and fire
If we stay together, we know, well be fine

The jokes and frolics weve had thousand times
But we all still laugh together to those strange lines
We clown each other. Taunt them as hell
We fight and we share but we know each well

Revelations are welcome to this group dearly
The sun seem to shine over us, immensely
We know for a fact, were intact and firm
You should see us together. Your eyes will burn

We undergo every clash, disagreement and stress
Weve surpassed them all, with high ranks, I guess
We tolerate anger, chaos and grief
Were just lucky thats what our friendship can give

We finish everything that we meant to start
Were connected in ways, in mind, in heart
We eat all together under the grace of God
Cant stop us from fun cause thats what we love

We are composed of:
Abe, the keen, clever and intelligent leader;
Cheryl, the upright, trustworthy and unwearied follower;
Ann, the high-spirited, sporty and social girl;
Aileen, the vigorous, whimsical and hyper toddler
And Kyla, the bizarre, pathetic and hapless lover

A Message Unsent

Tears behind this stupid mask
Will never ever reach its last

Charlie And His Factory

Oh yezz.
We watched Charlie And The Chocolate Factory last night.
I've read the book twice before. And I think Roald Dahl
is a GOOD writer. He brings out the story, setting
and the characters so well. His way of writing really
can fill your head with such images, as if your
playing a movie inside yer head.
Astig ka, Roald.
(close kyo?!)

My sentiments, exactly.

I hate my life.



Ang drama ng pic.

Ganito lang kasi yan.

Huwag niyong bigyang pansin.
Unti-unting mawawala.
Kung muli itong bumalik.
Pabayaan mo na lamang ulit.

Huwag ng pansinin, iha.
Para hindi pansinin ng IBA.
Mas mabuting nang maging manhid.
Kesa matawag na sampid.

Reasons why I'm crazy over three.

1. Simple! kasi 5 - 2 = 3
2. 3rd letter sa alphabet... C!
(wala lng.)
3. Yung 3 kong major crushes walang "C" sa name.
4. 3 times 3 is 9
5. 9th letter sa alphabet... I!
6. Kapag tatlo kayong magkakasama..
Ndi masyadong marami
pero ndi rin onti.
7. Maraming bagay at
mga araw ang umiikot
sa numerong tres. :)
8. May tatlong malalaking
bagay akong pinagsisisihan.
9. 3 days lang ang exams. phew.
10. Tres Marias kami ng mga kapatid ko.
11. Birthday ko may "3".
12. Onti lang may gusto
sa tres or ndi ko lng
alam na favorite din nila un. :}
13. Class Number ko last year... THREE

At madami pang katakot-takot na rason.
Ahhhh BASTA. Three rocks.
I just can't stress it enough.

Anong date ngayon?

3 is such a great number.
Don't argue with me.

Even though.

"It was fun!"

3 simple words.
oh yeah.

The past was fun.
But it CAN'T be done again.
The past can never be changed.
But it can be relived again.
The past can scar you.
But it can never heal.

I hate the past.

This thing

My love for you
was meant to die
Last night I saw
it's wrong to cry
I tried to mend
this broken heart
But then I saw
we're destined to part

And now I've thought
of leaving you
Convincing myself
that's right to do
These sad goodbyes,
used and exhausted
To this pit of hope,
my love rested

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG
WITH MY TAG-BOARD?!?!