2 YEARS...

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Okay. I'm deciding to write here because I've lost all drive to actually write on my diary. That's a sad fact but what can I do. I've created my entire world lately around the internet and I can't stop.

Anyways, the reason why I'm posting here is because something's bothering me.

This morning, F, unfollowed, followed, then unfollowed me for good. It all happened after I posted a semi-HQ A picture that I got from my source. She, of course, posted a photoset first and such, but I wanted something of my own so I posted one, or two, I mean two.

I mean, I even mentioned her in the tag saying that she already posted the picture. Idk, I guess I'm semi-ranting because it's such a petty reason for her to turn back on me. She can confront me about it, I thought we were at that level. But no, she didn't. She just immediately and in-my-face-ingly (that't not a word lol) shut me out without even messaging me or something.

It's just so childish. I thought she was different. I kept my friendship with her because I thought she wasn't like the others. But it turns out, she's exactly like them :(

Sad, I know. I mean, who the fuck cares who posts what first. Who the fuck fucking cares?!

On a much much lighter note... Tatiana won Best Actress at the Critics today :) I'm so proud of her :)

Btw, I haven't told them. And no, I still don't know what to do with my life.

WHAT HAPPENED TO THIS BLOG

im seriously asking though

maybe someday ill go back to this blog and update it like i used to do

i actually miss it

having a blog to maintain
being excited to go home and having to write everything that has happened to me

i miss it

mostly because i miss my old life

of course you dont know but
A LOT HAS CHANGED since the last post on this thing
and its not all for the better
if i think about it, its all basically for the worse

this may or may not be the last post on here
but we'll see where life takes me or takes me away

Goodbye.

PS: Remind me to make a detailed post about my life later.
Because things have been shit.
And I want to rant.

Also...

This blog is dead, sorry.

BUT IN OTHER NEWS.
MY ULTIMATE FAVORITE BLOGGER (Blogspot and Tumblr), D. Snarker, followed me on Tumblr. Howly shitz. I literally could not breathe when I saw the notif. Waaaah. All the creys.

Look at these glorious screen caps:



She'll probably unfollow me once she figures out that I'm so unquality. But OHWELLZ. LET ME CHERISH THIS BLESSED MOMENT. OHMYGOSH. Forever checking my follower list just to see if she still follows me. Eep. Creepy fangirl habits. Haaay.

Next.

LOOK AT THIS. I am dead. Bye.

CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR FACE, BITCH.

For winning Favorite Female Artist in the Alma Awards :)
...even if you haven't released any albums yet.

BAMF.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry but you're really hurting me.

They say that the people you trust the most are the ones who are most capable of hurting the shit out of you. Lovelife-wise, I've experienced this many times before and I can definitely attest to it. Frienship-wise, I must say, I've had no such experience yet... not until now.

Frankly, I know I should be handling this much better, but I guess its highly personal now, like i'm-writing-on-my-diary-crying-tiny-tears kind of personal.

At my LRT ride home awhile ago, I retold our story in my head. We were such kids then, kinda immature, virtually adventurous and true to life happy go lucky people. But even so, and I never told you this, I didn't see you as a lost kid. I respected all your principles, thoughts, ideas and beliefs. I looked up to you even. You're way of thinking was different from mine and I wanted to think like the way you do. Which, now when I trace every decision I've made, I think is the reason why I'm here in this position.

I'm standing here, trying to keep shit in order, making ends meet and keeping things life moving forward.

The difference is... you're not. You turned away from me. And it's not like you did this honorable abandonment that honestly, I would've accepted better. Instead, you chose to be sudden. As if we were in the middle of a conversation and you suddenly just hurried off 'cause you heard the ice cream truck coming (ice cream truck not part of the metaphor you guys).

And that? Just ouch.

Another is... back then, I never saw this in our future. I thought we'd be here together. Supporting each other. Oh god, of all the people, just of all the people, why you? What's going on inside your head? You know you can always just tell me, explain to me what's happening. But you didn't.

Both of us turned the blind eye and simple went with the waves. Partly, I know I'm also at fault here. I did my best to understand you, to give you some leeway. Can't you give me just the respect? Respect for the long history that we have?

I'm sorry but I'm about to give up. Hanging by a thread here.

True. Because I just can't handle this. It's not like I'm standing on the strongest tripod here. Do I still need to elaborate this? I'm just so tired.

I'm sorry but I love Glee and Westlife.

Finally. Something good to be sorry for.

And yes, I'm seeing Westlife live here in Manila on September 29! I am beyond freaking excited. ARANETA, WELCOME ME WITH OPEN ARMS! I'm going with Vi-ann. Just. Can't. Wait. Any. Longer.

For Glee though, I know they will never drop by our 3rd world country anytime soon, probably never. But I'm still hoping. Just give me that tiny sliver of hope. I really just wanna see Naya... and this leads us to...

I'm sorry but Naya is killing me.


Crappy picture is perfect.

FUNNIEST THING I'VE SEEN IN DAYS.

ANTHONY:

I peel you, Banana
I peel you.
I was half convinced I’d eaten,
Satisfied enough to eat you,
Happily I was mistaken,
Banana.
I’ll peel you, Banana,
I’ll peel you.


I’ll peel you, Banana,
I’ll peel you.
Do they think that bowls could hide you?
Even now, I’m in the kitchen,
I am in the dark beside you,
Buried sweetly in your yellow hair!
I feel you, Banana,
And one day I’ll steal you!
Til I’m with you then,
I’m with you there,
Sweetly buried in your yellow peel!

MALIGAYANG ARAW. :)

Maligayang araw sayo.
Alam mo na kung sino ka.
'Di ko lang sigurado kung makikita mo 'to.

KAMUSTA KA NA BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
ANO NANG BALITA?

New York is finally gay.

New York celebrates by displaying some rainbows on the Empire.



Another reason to love New York
besides its total swag and outstanding Broadway performances.

Found this somewhere

I just don’t know what to do. I’m sitting here in front of the computer, not willing to stand up nor move, because I am stalling. Stalling, yes because, as what I’ve just said, I don’t know what to do.

I know I should toughen up and face this thing but I just can’t. I’m too premature for this. People may think that I have the guts to do it, but don’t they know how feeble I am inside. Well, how could they?

I’m so tired of people telling me that “everything’s gonna be okay” or “you’ll pull through it”. Not one of them is telling me “I know it’s hard, I know this is hitting you where it hurts, what can I do to help?” Where are my friends? Where are “my people”?

My parents don’t have the slightest idea of what’s happening right now. I haven’t decided on how I’m supposed to tell them this. I do know for sure that they will be gravely disappointed - knowing that simply crushes me.

Basically, I’m stuck because I’m weak. And I just don’t know what to do.

DEATH OF ME.

I NEVER THOUGHT THIS COULD EVER BE POSSIBLE.
MY TWO ETERNAL LOVES IN ONE GLORIOUS PICTURE.
I AM JUST DEAD NOW.

TINA FEY ON SNL!!!

FUDGE, ANG GANDA NIYA DITO!!!
Fey-vorite ko yung last :)

http://wizardrock.org/

Apparently, there is such a thing as "WROCK" music.

...as in Wizard Rock.

"Wrock ( Wizzard Rock) originated the Harry Potter-themed band which became the genesis of the subculture composed of fans of the Books who characterized by a feeling of sympathy and camaraderie with others who share a common interest centering around wizard rock.WROCK at the end of 2009 has grown to at least 750 bands."

WHERE HAS THIS BEEN ALL MY LIFE?



So, now I am just furiously downloading WROCK music. :)

Tina Fey

Tina Fey, when asked “Which living person do you most despise?”
She answered:

Osama bin Laden. Unless we think he’s dead by now, in which case that guy who holds up the GOD HATES FAGS sign.

You are really my hero, Tina ♥

Thursdays.. in the States.

So I was so prepared to watch Grey's on Stream via these links:

1. http://www.seeon.tv/view/11089

2. http://www.tvpc.com/Channel.php?ChannelID=3000

3. http://tvpc.com/Channel.php?ChannelID=3043

But then, one minute before the episode airs (and mind you it's one of the most awaited episodes, it's the WHITE WEDDING Y'ALL), the site crashes. Argh. I got so badtripped that I discarded the thought of trying the other links. Hay.

So now, I am simply reading the liveblog posts of the Grey's fans I'm following on Tumblr.

What a thursday.
And get this, there are so many new things happening tonight... Yes, and that means, I have so many new episodes to download.

30 Rock Season 5 Finale
Grey's Anatomy White Wedding episode
Tina Fey's guesting on Late Night with Jimmy Fallon (plus AMY POEHLER! FUCK YEAH.)

There's really nothing else to do now. I shall simply wait a few hours before all these episodes are uploaded and converted to torrent so that people like me, who live outside the effing states, could download and watch them eventually.

Yes, I am bitter.
Currently, I'm just downloading the acapella versions of Songbird and I Feel Pretty/Unpretty - damn nice songs. While everyone else are freaking out because at this very moment, Arizona and Callie are being pronounced as Wife and Wife.

Damn you Philippines, why are you not part of the USA? :|

Moments of Panic

I was having a normal day.

I was on Tumblr, I was lying on my bed, I was listening to my dear music
when suddenly... These moments of panic come from out of nowhere!

So, first, I gOt to speak to one of our charter members. I know it's cheap that I only was able to talk to her via FB (and via our Chapter acct), but what the hell, she knew who she was talking to and she trusted me enough to give me her number! YES. She gave me her number. It felt like I struck gold when she replied to my message. Even more shocking when she readily gave out her information :) Haay. Hihi.


This all came about because we were selling these beautiful pins and she, H.M. Villar (the charter member), expressed her interest. :)

The pins for sale, only at p200!


And when I still wasn't over the whole charter member thing, the next minute, I find out that NAYA FREAKING RIVERA WOULD BE HOSTING THE GLAAD AWARDS. OHMYGOSH FOR THE FREAKING WIN!



Not only will be it be an event filled with hotness that is Naya Rivera, SARA RAMIREZ would also be attending the same event. MY GOODNESS, MY HEART. Hay nako. Just read on:

Naya Rivera to Host GLAAD Awards
"Glee’s Naya Rivera will host the GLAAD Media Awards ceremony this month in San Francisco, where Sex and the City star Kim Cattrall will be honored for her work.
By Advocate.com Editors

Glee’s Naya Rivera will host the GLAAD Media Awards ceremony in San Francisco on May 14 that will honor Sex and the City star Kim Cattrall.

According to an announcement from GLAAD on Wednesday, Cattrall will receive the Golden Gate Award for work that has increased the understanding and visibility of the LGBT community. The Golden Globe Award-winning actress is currently appearing in the film Meet Monica Velour and will star in Noël Coward’s Private Lives on Broadway this fall.

“Kim Cattrall has not only grown acceptance of our community through storylines on shows like Sex and the City, but used her platform to speak out for equality,” said GLAAD president Jarrett Barrios. “We are proud to honor such a talented and passionate advocate.”

During the ceremony at the San Francisco Marriot Marquis, former Wall Street Journal reporter Kara Swisher will receive the Local Hero Award and special honors will be presented to AT&T. Guests expected to attend include Mario Lopez and Sara Ramirez. Award winners will also be announced in the categories of Outstanding Film – Wide Release, Outstanding Documentary, and Outstanding Spanish-Language Music Artist.

The GLAAD Media Awards recognize and honor media for their fair, accurate and inclusive representations of the lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender community and the issues that affect their lives. A complete list of nominees for the 22nd annual GLAAD Media Awards is available here."

Article from HERE

Congratulations on your face, Naya!

Brittana ♥

The only reason why I watch Glee..

Songbird by Naya Rivera

I've never listened to a song this hard since Regine or The Script happened in my life. And it's only been 4 days since I downloaded the song, plus remember, this is just the number of plays from my laptop. Haha. Imagine how much I abused the repeat feature on my ipod. Teehee.

There will be a new episode once I wake up from tonight's sleep.

I CAN NOT WAIT FOR SANTANA'S SOLO!!! GAH GAH GAH
...and yes, BRITTANA DEVELOPMENT! OHYES.




Naya, can I have your face for Christmas?
Thank you I love you.

Royal Wedding of the Century

Prince William: You look beautiful...

I, William Arthur Philip Louis, take thee, Catherine Elizabeth, to my wedded wife, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better, for worse: for richer, for poorer; in sickness and in health; to love and to cherish, till death us do part, according to God’s holy law; and thereto I give thee my troth.

I, Catherine Elizabeth, take thee, William Arthur Philip Louis, to my wedded husband, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better, for worse: for richer, for poorer; in sickness and in health; to love and to cherish, till death us do part, according to God’s holy law; and thereto I give thee my troth.




Prince William & the lucky Miss Catherine Middleton