*EDITED

"EVERYTHING IN LIFE IS A CHOICE."

And I don't know why I find it so hard to follow my own advice.

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Haay.
Hindi ko alam, pero deep inside nahihirapan talaga ako.

Parang...
May dalawang taong nagtatalo sa loob. Si Denial at si In Love..

Ang hirap talaga.

Hindi ko alam kung dapat ba kitang sisihin kasi.. kasi.. ganyan na ang buhay mo ngayon at parang hindi mo na, ever, hawak yung telepono mo, o kung dapat bang sisihin ko ang sarili ko dahil sa masyado akong.. naghahanap? nageexpect?

Dapat bang hindi nalang talaga akong sumubok pa at manatili nalang sa pagtingin sa aking mga paa habang naglalakad?

Kasi parang napapagod nakong mainis, pero kung hindi naman ako mabanas at makaramdam na lamang ng wala akong paki, eh para namang, isinangtabi ko ang mga nararamdaman ko..

Pucha. Yun kasi yung problema eh, yung nararamdaman ko.
Ba't ba hindi ako pwdeng matulad sa'yo. Kaya mong.. maging ganyan. Kaya mong... matiis ako? Ewan. Nagaassume lang ako.

At... minsan, naiisip kong 'wag ka nalang kausapin at tanungin kasi nararamdaman kong mahirap na magbago pa.

Ay shet. Yun pa pala. Kasi umaasa pa'kong magbabago.
Na magbabago ka, at babalik sa dati.
PUCHA. Yun yun eh.

One, yung nararamdaman ko. Which leads to number..
Two, dahil sa umaasa pa'ko.

WOOHOO.
Ang laki kong hopeless romantic.

Putik. Isa na'kong Ivan.

Ivan, hindi tayo magkaiba. PAREHO LANG TAYO.

Tuloy parin sa pagumpog ng ulo sa pader. Patuloy na naghahanap ng kahit anong tamis sa bawat mapait na pagtama ng malamig na semento sa ulong ayaw maniwalang mas masarap ang hindi nakakaramdam ng hapis.

Which brings me back to... I don't know why I find it so hard to follow my own advice.


EDIT:
-Sa tingin ko ay.. nagooverreact lang ako.

"I told you so."
WOOHOO.

ADJUSTING PERIOD.

ayusin mo na buhay mo, kyla.


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DINNER AT PEPATCO.






WITH AIKO. WOOHOO. WE SAW HER! :)





NAPAGOD SI DIANNE. dahil sa sushi :|












'Cause I'm vain this way :))



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PUCHA.

POVERTY SUCKS.

Diba Donna? :))
Ahahaha. Shet.

i can't believe na napost ko na 'to sa multiply.. tas dito hindi pa? shems.

anyways.
hello.

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS IN UPmanila.
oh, diba? :))



OHA. :)

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Anywhooo.
And the boggling questions stands.

to VIGAN or to PUERTO?

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i switch to myx. i hear the song.
i turn on my playlist. i hear the damn song, again.

all it took was to let my ears feed on that song twice in one day,
for everything to come out of that Pandora box, i use to call

..when it took me almost a year to find the strongest lock.

Why can't I write the same way again? :(

so.. it's time for me.. to... blog again :))

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I AM SUCCESSFUL!

i was able to download itunes. amazing me :))
yehey. now, i can update my ipod. but.. but..

the thing is, i don't know what songs to put into it now.
amazing me.

anyways.. for today's topic: my sched.

wala lang :))
for documentation purposes. ;)


SO. FUTURE KYLA! this was your schedule in the oh-so-amazing university of the philipines, 1st semester (oo, surviving ka parin), 1st year :|

note: from memory lang 'to... so... baka may onting kinks.

MONDAYS:
8.30am - 9.30am MATH effing 17
10.00am - 11.30am NATSCI 8 ethnobotany the best. IP AKO!
11.30am - 1.00pm COMM1 miss mishima mishano? :) THE BEST.

uwian na.

TUESDAYS: hell day. my faaave.
7.00 in the am, baby - 8.30am HISTORY1 sir arleigh cutie pie
8.30am - 10.00am MATH effing 17 (everyday 'to)
10.00am - 1.00pm BIO2O LAB botany bitch
2.30pm - 4.00pm BIO20 LEC sir obico = trish <3
5.00pm - 7.00pm PHARM100 seminaaaaars. speakers. BFAD100 :)) damn.
*every other week lang ang BFAD100

tas off to rob na. dinners with dorm mates or blockmates. (asa)

WEDNESDAYS: err day.
9.00am - 12.00pm NSTP sa CP

tas "aral" time na. katulad ngayon :))

THURSDAYS:
repeat ng Mondays. pero... MAY PE2 na.
3.00pm - 5.00pm BEING NATIONALISTIC. PhilippineGames! :))

FRIDAYS:
repeat ng Tuesday.
Pero...

after ng lahat, UWIAN NA SA BELOVED taytay, rizaaaaaaal, calabarzon babes.




SO YUN.
yan ang schedule ni kyla erika buenafe.
sharing lang naman. :))


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ANYWAYS.

dahil sa sobrang naaatat na'kong magparty, ay wala atang araw na hindi ako nakikinig kay chris brown sa pagkanta-kanta niya ng "feel the melody and the rhythm of the music around you, around you, imma take you there, imma take you there" (oha, memorize ko)


ULTIMATE LSS NA 'TO.
last time akong nagkaganito sa isang kanta ay... nung panahon pa ng "My Heart", 3rd year ata yun :))

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Song of the day:

Move, she wants to move
But you're hogging her, you're guarding her
She wants to move (she wants to move)
She wants to move (she wants to move)
But you're hogging her, you're guarding her (damn!)

Mister! Look at your girl, she loves it!
(Look at her) I can see it in her eyes.
She (come here babe) hopes this lasts forever, Hey!!

She Wants To Move
N.E.R.D feat Pharell?

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I miss my Bibbobabes.
WE'RE ONE. ONE. THREE ONE.
Haay. Miss Sarenas of my heart <33



THOSE WERE THE DAYS. damn.

YOU CAN NEVER BUILD A HOUSE BIGGER THAN YOUR DREAMS.

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I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in

May god's love be with you
Always
May god's love be with you

I know I would apologize if I could see your eyes
'cause when you showed me myself I became someone else
But I was caught in between all you wish for and all you need
I picture you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You can't keep awake

if I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find
You

I don't know anymore
What it's for
I'm not even sure
If there is anyone who is in the sun
Will you help me to understand
'cause I been caught in between all I wish for and all I need
Maybe you’re not even sure what it's for
Any more than me

May god's love be with you
Always
May god's love be with you

IN THE SUN
Michael Stipe

-HAY. Such a beautiful song <333

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I have a problem.

I... can't...

download ITUNES.
:((

I feel so bad. I can't update my iPod :((

I'm missing out on the new songs.
WAAAH.

OH NOOOO.

Haay. And I've been counting on my ipod in.. "accompanying" me in life, that's why not being to download iTunes really SUCKS like hell :)) ..I mean, when I'm stressed, I go soundtripping, when I'm happy, I go soundtripping, when I'm bored, I go soundtripping.

What will happen now when I'm stressed, happy or bored?

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On September 12-14, we (histo class) will venture into the small world of VIGAN! WAHOOOO! I AM BEYOND EXCITED! =) Prooooomise!

We'll be going into different museums, churches, we'll go beach-ing (LIKE REALLY), we'll go kalesa-riding, we'll BOOOOND. holy crap.

Haay. And to add the already increasing anticipation, my dear viEnn might join! WAHOO. WAHOO. WAHOO. <3 I CAN NOT WAIT.


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CONGRATULATE ME!
Holy macaroni. Whyy?

'Cause I passed our 2nd BioLab moving exammmm.
SHEEEET.

It was... heavenly :)

OhMyGad.


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WE CAN'T ALWAYS THINK POSITIVE.
Sometimes...

We have to think realistically.

2.37am na pala ng umaga.
sayang. ang ganda pa naman ng oras. pero umaga na't gising pa'ko

at...

kelangan ko nang malalabasan
sobrang hirap kasi

fudge


oras na naman
at kelangan ko na namang matutong...

















magpakawala


oo tama

ladies and gentlemen,

oras na naman po!

at, katulad ng dati ay nasa "losing end" na naman ako.


HAY. ANG PATAWA NG BUHAY. :))
shet.

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Ain't no sunshine when she's gone.
It's not warm when she's away.
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
and she's always gone too long
anytime she goes away.

Wonder this time where she's gone,
wonder if she's gone to stay
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
and this house just ain't no home
anytime she goes away.

And I know, I know, I know, I know, I know

Hey, I ought to leave the young thing alone,
but ain't no sunshine when she's gone,
ain't no sunshine when she's gone,
only darkness everyday.
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone,
and this house just ain't no home
Anytime she goes away.

TAKTE.
Naiiyak na me. :))

Tama nga si Rascal.
Life is a highway.
Ang tanong... Do I want to ride it all night long?

Kamalas-malasan mo nalang diba kung maabutan mo ang domino car crash.
Ipit ka sa gitna
>.<

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Kasalukuyan kong inaayos ang aming report para sa Ethnobotany na magaganap, hmm, maya-maya. Gagawa pa'ko ng table. Aayusin yung powerpoint. Magpiprint at magpapaxerox pa siyempre. Kelangang maging handa sa kung ano mang pwedeng mangyari bukas.

Hindi lang yun. Kinakabahan na'ko para sa biyernes dahil sa... baka ibigay na ang bio lec at lab results. At baka meron pang isang pwedeng mangyari na siyempre matagal ko nang iniiwasan. Depende pa yun sa resulta ng mga pangyayari.

Gusto ko ang nagiisa at tahimik at gising sa gabi. Kasi dun ako tuluyang nasasaklob ng aking totoong mga emosyon. Nagiging klaro ang mga bagay-bagay. 'Di lang yun, puro ko pang nararamdaman ang mga matagal ko nang binabalewala, tinatanggi o itinatago. Kaya nga minsan, sa tingin ko, delikado ang maging sentimental sa tuwinang gabi't nagiisa ka dahil sa baka kung ano na lang ang biglang maisip mo at bigla ka na lang kumuha ng lubid at.... magJumping rope (oha. kala mo magbitin noh?).

Isa sa mga bagay na 'tong pwedeng magawa ng ngpapakasentimental sa gabi ay ang biglaang pagDelete ng lahat ng messages sa kanyang telepono. (o selepono ba? ewan.) Muntikan na 'tong mangyari sa'kin nang tuluyan kong hinayaang mabalot ako sa hinanakit na nararamdaman ko. Hindi lang yun! Napunit ko pa bigla ang *toot* na, so far, ay hindi ko pa naman pinagsisisihan.

Gusto ko ngang tahimik at nagiisa sa gabi pero.. sa tuwing ginagawa ko ito ay may mga bagay akong pinagsisisihan na sana hindi ko nalang iniisip at meron namang akong mga pinapakawalan para 'di na kelangan pang isipin kinabukasan.

Ang hirap nga naman talaga ng ganitong sitwasyon noh?

Ang labo pa :|

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Sorry ah. Pero hindi masyadong valid para sakin ung
dahil lang sa.. "dati pa yun" o kaya "lumipas na"

Haay.
Ano ba.

YOU'RE BREAKING MY HEART.


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Walang point ung asa taas.
Bye.

NAKS.

New layout. :)
Finally... I found something.. that is... pwede na

Haay.
Ohwell.
I'm in my classmate's house right now.
DOING A LABREPORT.
Fairly easy, but to do it in the "college standard"
Woohoo. Medyo kelangang gandahang ang mga bola-bola :))

Shems.
Harvard way pa ang pagState ng resources. SAN KA PA? :)

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I'm off for another week of pure h-e-l-l

Oh yes. Sunod-sunod na naman po ang exams.
Pero... hindi na masyado this time :)
I got time to study well.

*tentative schedule

AUG 19: HISTORY I (Katipunan, Propaganda..shit)
AUG 26-29: MATH17 (More shit.)
SEPT 6: Bio20 Lec (Evolution, Taxonomy, blah)
SEPT 12/16: Bio20 Lab (Metabolites, Cell Resp, Photo..blah)

I NEED A NEW SONG.

I NEED A NEW LIFE.

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Hindi mo naman naiintindihan eh.
MAHIRAP TALAGA.

I really miss vlogging.
Like REALLY.

Anyways...

My Sched:
AUGUST 5 - BIO20 LAB moving exam (MICROSCOPY - Cell, Tissues)
AUGUST 7 - MATH17 2nd DepEx (topics i hate)
AUGUST 9 - BIO20 LEC 2nd DepEx (Photo, Resp, Gene, blahhhh)
AUGUST 11 - NATSCI8 2nd exam (Plants as medicine, food, blahhhh)

..ang ganda ng sched ko :)
ANG SAYA SA YUPIEM!!!
IT'S THE BEST PLACE ON EARTH.

Sa sobrang "at home" ako sa YUPIEM at sa sobrang HINDI AKO NAHIHIRAPAN, natuwa nalang ako sa sinabi ni Donna...

And I quote,
"Let's pray for each other. Tayo nila dianne, ikaw, erika, at ako.
Tayo tayo lang rin naman kc ngkakaintindihan sa eskwelahang to eh."

TAMA. TAMA.

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SANDIGAN

Haay. Fun week. Fun week.
Hindi pa'rin tapos..

Pero natapos ko na lahat ng tasks :))

EDUC - HALAMAN TASK
CULTURAL - "DA DA DA DA DA DAA.. sandiiiiiiii" :))
SERVICE - "Hello, this is Kyla Buenafe from the UPM Sandigan Org, does your company accept solicitaions and sponsorships for Medical Missions?"
PROPOL - "I, Kyla Erika Buenafe, am running for the 2nd year batch representative from the K.I.D. Party.... blaaah" :))

COOL.
Pati tambay hours, tapos na! Sobra sobra pa nga eh. Tumambay kasi nung naStranded sa college.. dahil sa baha :)) GRABENG BAHA UN!

Pati yung blue book ko! So amazing! (Sarili nalang pala ang nagpuri! Ahahaha!) WOOHOO! GO SuperSandi!

Fun Day na sa Sunday.
GOOD LUCK TO ME. :)

Note:
KLKLKLKLKLKL
(kung sino makahula nung KL, magaling. Si Dayan at Donna lang ata yun! :] ahaha!)