GOOD NEWWWSSSS

I just received the BEST email EVER! (Okay, not really.) They sent us the list of the people who needs to take the Removal exam and I'M NOT ONE OF THEEEEEEEM. I'm so happpppyyyy >.<

Ibig sabihin pasa nako sa PhCh125 LAB!!! KAHIT TRES LANG, PWEDE NAAAAAA.


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They also showed the Hindi Ka Nagiisa music video for Noynoy last night :) I'm not sure if I want Regine campaigning for Noynoy (or for any politician for that matter) but I'm happy that she was the one who sang the song (and Ogie composed it - what a tandemn!)


Btw, Regine is said to join Darna. So... Another soap for Regine!!! :)
I wonder what her character would be?

Why the Philippine government sucks.

BEFORE ANYTHING ELSE.
CONGRATULATIONS TO MY LOVE, RV :)


Winners in the 1st Star Awards for Music held last night,
October 29, at Skydome SM North Edsa:

Female Recording Artist of the Year
Regine Velasquez Low Key (Universal Records)

Revival Album of the Year
Low Key Artist: Regine Velasquez (Universal Records) & Falling In Love
Artist: Rachelle Ann Go (Viva Records)

Hindi ko gets yung tie niya with Rachelle Ann Go, pero sige :))




Yur sow beeyutipul.


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THE PHILIPPINE GOVERNMENT SUCKS.
WHY? YOU ASK ME WHY?!


WELL, I just got home from the Municipal of Taytay. I was supposed to become a registered voter today but because of failed calculations and inefficient equipment, we (my sister and I) waited 10 LONG HOURS FOR NOTHING. Ohyes. The line was so damn long and my gosh, we sat there, doing nothing, JUST waiting for TEN WHOLE HOURS. Daaaaaaaamn girl.

And another thing that totally pissed me off was those SMOKERS around us. SHET. ANG DAMI NILA. Every 5 minutes, here comes a guy lighting a cigarette and he starts to huff and puff away. ANG BAHO SOBRA. GAAAAAAHD. I REALLY HATE SMOKING, AND I REALLY HATE SMOKERS. They have no consideration.

Haay. We have to go back tomorrow, but at least, they gave us these "passes"... meaning, priority kami bukas. Dapat lang noh. Ahaha. :))

I know what you're thinking. You're blaming us for waiting until the second to the last day of registration, before we actually went to register but I wasn't really planning on registering AT ALL. Pinilit lang ako ni Daddy. Amp. So we had to go there today.


All in all, it was a very unproductive day.

Ay wait.

I brought with me a book, Message in a Bottle (By N. Sparks).... I finished it and it didn't contain the usual fairytale magic dust that I was expecting.

Ohwell.

Anyways.
I gotta go now.
I'm super sleepy. I haven't had enough sleep considering that I slept at 3am this morning and was already up and going by 7.30am to register.

I'll wake up in a few hours to watch Bubblegang. They're celebrating their 14th anniversary tonight! They're showing 3 short funny films and Regine will be in one of those films... So I really can't wait <3

You know how I am.


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Char tagged me on Facebook as "The girl who can't remember who she is"
I asked why and she said...



Wala lang. NALABUAN LANG AKO.
At natuwa kahit alam kong binobola lang niya ako :))

New love: Owl City

Natatakot ako na baka hindi ka na bumalik.
Kailangan mong bumalik.

Huwag kang magpalubog diyan ng sobra. Hindi mo kelangang magpailalim. Alam ko namang kaya mo eh.

Mahal kita, totoo yan.

Sobrang nagi-guilty ako sa mga nangyari.
At hindi ko alam kung anong pwedeng gawin para maibsan yung nararamdaman mo.

Tandaan mo lang na... Pag nahulog ka na, andito lang ako, kaya kitang hilahin pataas. Nasasayo na kung kelan at paano mo gusto umahon. Iiwan ko na sayo yung deisisyon na yun, pero andito lang ako naghihintay. Mahirap magisa.

Bumalik ka ha. :'(
Hindi mo kelangang bumalik sa pamamaraan na gusto ko, gusto namin, o ng gusto ng kung sino man. Ikaw bahala kung paano mo gusto...

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Because of the amazing Owl City, I am now reminded of how fascinated I am by electronic music. My first experience with electronic music was with The Postal Service, which I discovered from my oh-so-hot cousin, Charles, back in 2nd year high school. I used to burn their songs and repeatedly play them on my discman (OO, discman palang nun). Golly, I love The Postal Service.

And now, with the arrival of Owl City, I am loving electronic music EVEN MORE.

Athena was the first person who mentioned Owl City to me. Then Kates came with the Fireflies mp3 playing on her cellphone. Later on, I see Trish listening and singing to the songs of Owl City. It wasn't until Trish told me that all of their songs were of the same format as Fireflies, that I decided to finally download their album and give it a good listen. :) And I am so glad I did. I thought that Fireflies was their only song that had an electronic feel to it. It turns out that they are that kind of group. Haaaay.

Owl City makes me feel good. Just as The Postal Service does.

Music is good for the heart <3


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As I turn the key her eyes contact with me
We share our precious moment in a glance
And as I drive away her memories here to stay
Her deep blue eyes have left me in a trance

Angel pumping gas
Why won't this moment last?
It's fate my life has brought me here today
Soon I'll be on my way...


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October 27, 2009

(Text): pgqewewedwe wgnrgrb
Adi: Yun lang? Wild ah.

Sara: Woohoo. Live life to the fullest!

Putek. Sobrang benta.


Shet. 3 am na pala :O


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Natuwa lang ako kasi may kasama ako na hindi nagustuhan ang (500) days of Summer. Nakakainis si SUMMER! AMP SIYA :| Buti na lang talaga at very animated at maganda yung soundtrack nung movie >.< (Nadownload ko na yung soundtrack. Ahahaha.)

Wait, benta yung part na may pinapanood na movie si Tom at Summer tas yung pangalan nung movie ay.... VAGIANT: Part Vampire, Part Giant. :)) BENTAAAA.

Alcohol......is......a.......devil.

A DEVIL.
MOST DEFINITELY.

Haay. But before I tell you that story.
I will start with Adi's debut :)

Well... It was held last saturday at Tektite Towers, Ortigas.
IT WAS SO MUCH FUUUUUUUUUN. We strut our stuff, made a fool of ourselves by disastrously dancing to Nobody and we had a Photobooth mania. Which, by the way, I think is unfair because Dayan got to keep all of our pictures. AMP YOU! :)) Ahaha. Siya naguwi nung mga pictures namin. AMP.

Anyways.
Happy 18th Adi!
You're 18 thousand pesos richer now.
LIBRE. LIBRE. LIBRE.

Here are some pitures from the Photobooth and from the debut itself :)














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Last tuesday, I had the Chem 18 lecture finals, it was kinda easy. I studied really hard for that and it kinda felt good that I was able to answer the problem solving part. Haay.

Anyways, to continue my good mood for that day, after my Chem exam, I went straight to Sara's place near the Pasig river (literally katabi nila yung Pasig river).

Sara lives at Tivoli Gardens. Man, that place is GORGEOUS. SUPER. And super cheap also!!! WAAAAH. Hope no more people discover its cheapness. Ahahaha.

Anyways, I decided go there not because I felt like I deserved a break, I went because I wanted to see these people - Thunderbirdies! Ahahaha. (Janna, Monster, Adi, Mia, Dianne, Tere, Sara) Oh yeah. Kasi naman eh, Sara texted last Monday asking if we were free on Tuesday night, she was inviting us into her place. SUPER RANDOM AND SPONTANEOUS MUCH!

But even though I sacrificed a LOT of study time, I had fun! I stayed there until 10-10.30pm? I know right! It's like I committed suicide knowing that I had TWO exams the next day. Well, just to tell you, I already studied for Physics and Pharm Chem proved to be unstudy-able, whatever. Ahahaha.

Well, I had fun that night. We caught up with each other and things were said and told. Blah, blah, blah... Usual Thunderbirdies fun :)


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Wednesday came and the two exams went by so quickly. As expected, Physics was kinda easy and Pharm Chem was.... out of this world.

After that, I went straight to Shang. Tere picked me up from there and then we were off to the Bibbo/Tomato reunion! Whoot.

I think more or less 10 people came. We played cards, ordered pizza and played Jenga. :) It was fun and refreshing.

What happened after everyone left wasn't though.

I drank. And because of Alcohol's amazing capability to reduce inhibitions, I was able to say A LOT of things. Mostly about my life and EVERYTHING around it. Basically, naghubad ako sa harap nila. (NOT LITERALLY) I mean, I let out ALL of my frustrations to them. School, family, friends, love, etc.

And well, I said more things beyond that.
And that basically rolled into something.....really bad.

That's why I tell you that Alcohol is a devil.

The Thunderbirdies (minus Sara and Monster) could testify to the fact that I am VERY talkative when drunk. By the way, whatever things I said, they were all true (KAYA WALANG LALABAS AH. AMP.) Haay. And not only did some things ended up SO BADLY, another thing simply ended.... like really just ENDED (through text). Bastusan? Amp. Don't blame me, blame alcohol. It made me do something that I've been planning on doing since ever. And they were all very supportive. They were right and what I did felt right.

ONE WORD COULD AND WOULD SUM UP LAST NIGHT (and the early morning of today's) EVENTS:


T-E-N-S-I-O-N


Haay. Believe me, this blog post doesn't justify what really happened last night. I just needed to tell you what happened, but not everything that happened. Okay?

I BELIEVE IN YOU.
WTHWT?

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PUNTA FUEGO TRIIIIIIIP NEXT WEEK :)
Nov 6, 7, 8, 9.

SHEEEEEEEEEEET.

I.CAN.NOT.WAIT.



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By the way, we watched This Is It today :) It was great. Ang galing ni MJ! Whoo. Although, I've always found him... weird. But you know, he knows his music. And he knows how to play with it. He's very entertaining. SOBRANG GANDA NUNG CONCEPTS AND MGA PAKULO PER SONG. WAAAH.


It's sad that he died. It was indeed a great great loss.


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Seginah pahkingahmo (Sige na pakinggan mo)
Sahnah mahtippohanmeoren (Sana matipuhan mo rin)
Eetteung kantangteu (Itong kantang 'to)
Demeuna eettahtthaneung ('di mo naitatanong)

Pabo ritteukeoteeu (Paborito ko 'to)
Kse eettong timseungkeu (Kasi itong theme song ko)
Kusteokonaheettong ahwiten (Gusto ko na itong awitin)
Kamit eettong mikropohneu (Gamit itong mikropono)
Degeuna mahphigil (Di ko na mapigil)
Kandang kandagu (Gandang-ganda 'ko)
Dittosa timseungkeu (Dito sa theme song ko)

Keungtipeonyo eettong ahwiten (Kung tipo nyo itong awitin)
Keusteomeo duwaetpahttahyeu (Gusto mo duet pa tayo)
Mejyo nageeeemeo (Medyo nage-emo)
Eettoang timseungkeu (Ito ang theme song ko)
Wagmeosahnah eettong itnahpen (Wag mo sana itong isnabin)
Bahkahmahppaheeyakahkeu (Baka mapaiyak ako)
Eomejyonageeeemeo (O, medyo nag-e-emo)
Ettoang timseungkeu (Ito ang theme song ko)

Tim Sung Ku
Regine Velasquez

-For Bubblegang's 14th anniversary. It was written by Michael Jackson :) So cute and funny!!!

Wishlisht kuno.

Ang lapit na pala ng birthday ko. Kaya gagawa ako ng "wishlist". Sige. Or siguro, semi-wishlist. Hindi naman kasi talaga 'to kelangan para sa birthday ko. Actually, gusto ko lang ilista yung mga bagay na gusto ko sa buhay. So.. eto na. Tatlong bagay lang naman 'to.


NUMBER 1. Totoy Bato series DVDs (pinagiipunan ko 'to. sana lang hindi ako mahuli at 'pag bibili nako eh hindi na sila nagpoproduce nung DVDs)




NUMBER 2. Cinch Bags <3 Eto yung FAVORITE kind of bag ko >.<




NUMBER 3. Shi Tzu or kahit anong aso. Matagal-tagal pa bago ko 'to makuha.



Oh diba. Parang hindi wishlist. Kasi parang unreachable lahat, hindi lang basta basta nabibili sa mall :)) Bale yan yung mga bagay na gusto ko talaga, as in yung mga deep inside, pinagnanasahan ko. Siguro matagal-tagal ko narin silang iniisip bilhin and I just can't get around to getting myself into buying them. Hindi sila yung mabababaw na bagay na gusto ko lang kasi gusto ko lang. May mga pinaghuhugutan yang mga yan, seryoso.

EVENTS

Ang tagal kong nawalan ng net.
Ang dami kong namiss sa internet. :))


Anyways. May exams parin ako hanggang Wednesday.
Bumisita lang ako sandali to check my mail and to post a list of the things that I'd make kwento to you about.

Last Week
Thursday: Cathechesis
Friday: Erika, Viann - 500 days of summer

Summer: One day I woke up and I just knew.
Tom: Knew what?
Summer: What I was never sure of when I was with you.

I HATE YOU SUMMER.

Saturday: Adi debut, ramp, photobooth, tere dress, CHAR (tom thingy)

This Week
Sunday: Aral, kimsamsooooon <3
Monday: (Today pala yun) Wala. Exam - PhCh 125 Lab finals
Tomorrow: Tivoli with Thunderbirdies :), Exam - Chem18 Lec finals (2pm)
Wednesday: Tomato/Bibbo Reunion, ExamS (PharmChem125 Lec finals, Physics51 finals)


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BUSY BUSY BUSY ME
BUT I'M ALSO HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY

Because...

Trish and I PASSED CHEM 18 LAB!!!
WE'RE NOT TAKING THE REMOVAL EXAAAAM!

PRAISE THE LORD. That is one TRUE MIRACLE.

Haay. Even if I just invented our WHOLE Cation Qualitative Analysis. (Aluminum and Manganese shit?) PRAISE THE LORD AGAIN. I REALLY CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!! I don't know how we passed Chem18 lab.

ALSO. My target grade for the PharmChem Lab finals wasn't that high (it wasn't an easy target grade to reach but still) Ayun. I'm happy.


SUPER THANK YOU LORD.


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Domestic with Tita Nora, Tito Alex, John and Mia on Thursday. :)
Done with our Catechesis. What a relief.



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I have often dreamed of a far off place
Where a heroe's welcome would be waiting for me
And the crowd would cheer when they see my face
And a voice keep saying "this is where I'm meant to be"

I'll be there somehow, I can go the distance.


ANG HINDI NAHIHIRAPAN,
HINDI UUNSAD.


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Kimsamsoon :)


Samsoon and Cyrus


Ang cute cute niya, sorry! :))


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But wait...

What is this?

"No wonder na nang magsabi si Regine kay boss Vic na kinausap na nito si Aga na muli silang gumawa ng movie dahil baka iyon na ang huling movie na gagawin bago siya mag-decide para sa bagong buhay niya, agad pinag-usapan nila ng manager ni Aga."

From: Aliwan Avenue

It breaks my heart.
The "R" has come out. :'(
I don't want to blame Ogie nor Regine.
It's what she wants.

It's what she has ever wanted.


Goodbye na ba? :'(
Next year na ba? After the wedding?

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You don't have to be rich to be my guy
You don't have to be cool to rule my world
Ain't no particular sign I'm more compatible with
I just want your extra time and your KISS

The fever rises.

Love her.




Napakabusilak talaga ng puso mo.

Haay.
Sana gumaling na yung migraine mo.
Don't stress yourself too much.

:'( Ingat.


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I have just downloaded the Christmas From The Heart album
of David Archuleta. And it is made of looooooooooove :)

Ang sweet forever ng boses niya >.< Daaaaaaaaang.
Parang Jon Peter Lewis lang eh.
It's got 13 wonderful tracks.
And I personally like Pat-A-Pan :))

1. Joy To The World
2. Angels We Have Heard On High
3. O Come All Ye Faithful
4. Silent Night
5. The First Noel
6. O Holy Night
7. Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas
8. I'll Be Home For Christmas
9. Pat-A-Pan
10. What Child Is This
11. Riu Riu Chiu
12. Ave Maria
13. Melodies Of Christmas


Haay. And as much as I would love to love his version
of Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas,
I JUST CAN'T.
Ask me why?
WELL, BECAUSE IT'S A DUET...

WITH CHARICE PEMPENGCOOOOOOOOOOOO
>.< HAY NAKO.

Bakit siya?!

HAY NAKO. WHATEVER NA NGA.

I guess I'm just glad he sang Oh Holy Night,
that's my ULTIMATE FAVORITE CHRISTMAS SONG EVER.


PS.
Ang weird nung smile niya sa album cover.
Ahihihi. :)

780th post. Cheers!

Today was a bad day because:


1. I did something HORRIBLE today.
Actually, I've been doing it a lot these past few months. I feel guilty doing it but... I need to do it to survive. Probably, all the shit that is happening to me is karma, but let me tell you guys, things would be A LOT worse if I don't do it.

I want to stop it, Lord. Believe me.

But I just don't know if I'd survive if I stop. :'(

Help?


2. We had a second Physics make-up exam today. The exam was for those people who needed a few (or A LOT) of points to get passing grades. And alas! I am one of those people who are required to take it. I REALLY HATE PHYSICS. Ever since highschool, ever since it was invented until now, Physics serves to be dreaded enemy.

I HATE IT. I HATE IT. I HATE IT.
Everything about Physics is a freaking S.T.R.U.G.G.L.E.

Although I may say that the test awhile ago was quite easy. I could've perfected it if only I had known that the make-up class was to be given today. Ohyes.
I was only informed about the said exam THIS freaking MORNING. What a great GREAT way to start my day.


3. I made tuklap my thumb and now it hurts like shit. I put a bandaid on it already but it would probably take a few more days to heal.


4. Last (but not the least). Awhile ago, when I was on my way home... I went up the UN LRT Station. I was ready! I bought the ticket and I was already waiting for the train when I realized that I was on the wrong side of the platform! Holy macarow. I hurried to the other side and BOUGHT ANOTHER TICKET (I needed the first ticket to get out of the station). My gosh. I was on side of the train heading to EDSA when I'm supposed to be going to D.Jose...

Haay. Life.
I hate public transportations :'/


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I talked to Apes awhile ago through the Y!M. She asked me when I'd be transfering to Diliman. And you know, the usual talk. I said it'd be hard, I said I don't know what course to transfer to, blah, blah. She suggested a few courses and I ended up looking for the Curriculum of Food Tech and Nutrition courses. Haay. It was full of Chemistry.

I hate Chemistry.


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It appears to me that I hate a lot of things right now.

I'm a pessimist.



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I'm going out with viEnn on Friday :)
CAN'T WAIT.

And I'm also happy to tell you that I saw Dayan AND Donna today. I missed them so much! It's been a long time since I last saw them >.<


Donna
-I saw her when she was on her way to the LT.

Dayan
-I saw her at the the 3rd floor of GAB. :)

We should hang out!
Hello, hello, hello!!!

Lalo ka na, Donna, ANG GC MO FOREVEEEEEEEEEER.



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At the jeep awhile ago, I heard Closer by Neyo. And it simply brought back A LOT of memories back from my college freshman days. It brought back the days when all I could think about was when I could go out next. Those days were my "carefree" days. I had the time to plan gimiks and outings with friends. It was "okay" to study a day or two before my exams. And most importantly, I was living in a dorm that's why hanging out as late as very early in the morning was not a problem.

And I realized that things have changed.

I'm not "carefree" anymore. I don't have the time to go out with people and invitations and plans to hang out are left hanging. I don't even listen to party songs anymore. I don't look out for the next time I'd be hitting the clubs or attending a debut, for we all know that's kinda hard to achieve nowadays.

Yes, there may be a few debuts and a few reunions (happening this saturday and wednesday next week, respectively) but when you look at my ENTIRE first semester, nothing really of that sort of events happened. Plus, the fact that I go home to Rizal EVERY SINGLE DAY, simply eradicated the thought of staying 'til 3, 4, 5am in Starbucks to "study" with some of my study buddies.

I miss it.

I miss my dorm life.



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Once again, I am reminded.


It is in your moments of decision that your destiny is shaped.


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I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I HAD AT LEAST 15 UNPUBLISHED POSTS!!! >.<
I just realized it now (after my 780th post!) I don't know why I didn't publish them! My gosh :| There were all labeled as drafts.

Haaay.

All this time, I thought these drafts were unfinished posts that I intended to not finish ever. But when I read some of them, man, they were well-written entries intended to be published.

I assumed that some of them weren't published because something went wrong while I was publishing it. Maybe the computer lagged or the internet connection down.

But.. But..

I saw that some of the entries were about you know and the most probable reason why I didn't publish particular entries was because I was afraid that she'd be able to read them and she'd get mad or something.

My gosh was I a stupid coward.
Haaay.

Well, I published the "publish-able" entries already.
Some posts go back to 2006.
Goodluck finding them.


PS.
I hate you for making me weak.

I got it! I GOT THEM! :)

I got the CDs already! :)
Thank you Regh! (Click here so you can purchase your own Regine DVDs)

I started watching Kimsamsoon awhile ago.
It's damn funny.

I can't believe that I've been so busy with school that I missed this whole series. Well, you can't totally blame me! I was in my dorm, at walang TV dun. Sadly, I even missed Regine's weekend special, Songbird Live. Ohwell. I really thank God for technology. <3

So going back to Kimsamsoon.

When you watch it straight, the fighting and the bickering gets so old that you can almost always predict what's going to happen. I'm still at the stage when the two of them (Samsoon and Cyrus) still hate each other. Excited nakong maging sila na talaga!

It is love :)

At dahil diyan... pagiipunan ko ang Totoy Bato.
I've seen some parts of it on Youtube and Regine definitely rocked it with her spectacular acting skills.
I must own it.

Haaay. Now I wonder what would've happened if ever Regine did transfer to ABS and did that Betty La Fea show. I think that GMA would be pretty much swamped if ever that happened.

Lucky GMA.




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From a friend's text:

Sometimes we only get to realize the need to change for the better when the situation is at its worst.

We finally correct our mistakes just when those mistakes have already caused irreversible damage.

We finally decide to prove ourselves worthy just when the person who you want to prove your worth has alreaady decided that you're not worth it at all.

Most lesssons are indeed learned when the tests are over.


If it were two years ago, I'd say this is about love, but today.. It's just about me. It's about me being totally human and sinful.


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Cathechesis on Thursday already.
Adultery. That's my topic.


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Psych10 and Comm III finals tomorrow.
No exam on Wednesday.
But I have a gimik that I think I should cancel.
Chem lecture 4th exam on Thursday.
Physics exam on Friday.

And I'm pretty sure may exam din this saturday...
I think it's Pharm Chem lec.


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Btw,
DON'T YOU JUST LOVE MY NEW LAYOUT? :))

I'll probably get tired of it in a few weeks.
But for now, enjoy! :)

HOLY CRAP. I USED TO WRITE.

I was trying to find some of my Psych 10 files so I browsed through my sent emails. When suddenly, I stumbled upon this 4-year old article I wrote for our Journalism project back in 2nd year. I tried to look for this before but I didn't succeed. Man.

I USED TO WRITE. Haay.

I even forgot about the whole story. I just remember that it started with "tap. tap. tap." Dang.

So here is it. I hope you guys read through 'til the end :)


tap. tap. tap.




...says the rhythmic patter of the rain on her window.



She stares blankly into space, with nothing but tears streaming down her face. Her pillow wet with her nonstop cries over the several nights alone. “Why did he leave me?” She asks, addressing it to no one in particular but the rain. And it seems like the rain responds with its endless pouring and powerful thuds, persistently trying to comfort her; reaching out to her; telling her it’s going to be okay. It seems sensible. For the rain was the only thing she had then.



He left him yet she wasn’t aware. She’s in another place; a far away place. She had to know it from another person. She hurried back to their place and the hear-say has become reality. He’s gone and nothing she can do to get him back.



Days alone in her room seemed to last a lifetime in her own sad world. Friends and family call almost every time, “How random.” She mutters, for they used to never bother even saying “Hi!” 37 messages are in her answering machine and yet, she hasn’t found the strength to open them. She’s not ready to face the world, face the truth, and face the reality that he is definitely gone.



She can’t live without him. She used to call him every day. In fact, he’s in speed dial number one. She calls whenever her boss pisses her off; whenever the cab driver forgets to pick her up; whenever she spots the coolest jackets on earth and when she feels like just calling. He has become her virtual journal. He’s her savior. Only with his strong burly arms will she find consolation and security.



But he’s gone now - away. Leaving her alone and very much vulnerable. She feels like a little kid lost in the middle of a massive crowd; a small fish in a sea of big whales. She struggles, with her small feet and undoubtedly small fins to find her knight in shining armor. She sees him nowhere. For the nth time she asks, “Where is he?”



And so her tears continued to pour alongside the rain. She remembered him asking her, “Hey! Come here, let’s talk” And they started talking under the palm tree. It was a typical picnic, complete with the picnic basket and the red and white checkered cloth. She was so caught up with his words of wisdom. She did nothing but stare… up to this day; she can feel his arms around her. She can hear his words ringing inside her head.



“You know, Lianne, I think you’re decision to go up to college is probably the best thing to do right now. It is for your future – our future. But I need you to know that I will miss you and I need you to take care of yourself. I won’t be able to afford losing you…”



And with those last words, she lost her trail of thoughts. She burst into tears. As if it wasn’t the last thing she did. She buried her face into the pillow. Wishing and hoping that it would soothe her grief and sorrow.



She started shouting, howling, and screaming. It was her way to let go all the suppressed sadness left inside her. She threw the pillows away, she broke all the vases and she tore her sheets apart. A woman, with a face also marked with trails of tears, approached her and tried to calm her down. “Don’t worry, my dear daughter, you will see him again… Our car will be arriving soon. We don’t want to be late for your father’s wake.”



And that was all she had to hear. Her warm tears seeped through her mother’s clothes.



Her father died ‘cause of a car accident. He was in a hurry to see her. He was rushing. And his car collided with a big truck.



tap. tap. tap.



Her father’s blood trailed its way to her.



And now he’s gone.





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TODAY'S THE DAY! >.<
3 more hours and I'm happy as a congressman finally getting his corrupted money from his allies. ANG LABO, but you get me :))

The Grey Effect

I didn't follow my diet today,
and that's bad.

I didn't study for squat today,
and that's REALLY bad.

I watched like 14, 15... 16 episodes of Grey's Anatomy season5 today,
ang that's... GOOD :)) Ahahahaha.

Haay. It's all because lately, I've been void of the "GC feeling". I have NO DRIVE whatsoever to study or pick up a freaking manual. Thus, my grades are seriously suffering. I have to take ALL my finals (lab or lecture or a simple GE class) and I have to take some of the removal exams. What a life.

But you know what, I kinda don't care... anymore.
I'm just worried about my parents - SUPER UNDERSTATEMENT.

I am feeling ashamed of all the bad decisions I've made that lead to this carelessness and super bad grades. I am feeling damn guilty.

And because of that, I have come up with the idea of paying them for the units they paid for the subject I WILL fail. I have the money. I saved up for it.


And that is why, even if you don't get the connection...
to watch that many episodes of Grey's Anatomy today kinda felt good.

And ALSO... to watch Grey's Anatomy NON-STOP makes you think stuff.

First, I am amazed by how they're all just doing their jobs - saving lives and dealing with extra issues on the side and at the end of they day, they're all still just fine. They go around Seattle Grace Hospital for hours on end but still they get the job done and they still have energy left for sex afterwards. Man, they all get through so much (and maybe that's why it's a drama series ON TELEVISION, nothing seems realistic)

But even though I think that they're all amazing (because they're smart-ass doctors who are all HOT, ahaha) I STILL don't want to be a doctor. ON NO I CAN'T BE ONE. They don't inspire me. I can't handle the pressure. Oh sure I might work in the hospital someday but not within the vicinity of open chests, bleeding arms and hyperventillating people with dilating pupils. I can't work under that kind of pressure and I don't have enough presence of mind to save myself, how much more save another? I just.. can't. My career is just directed towards the medicine. Literally, just the medicine and I'd prefer if my future job would be inside an office, good 2-3 rooms away from the pit, the OR or the ICU.


Next.

Grey's Anatomy makes you remember your... moments.
I mean, they always have these intense moments between two people and I can't help but remember my own intense moments with my people.

Two particular moments resurfaced.
The one at CH's house and the one at GI's house.
Those were the few moments where I tried to remember (and keep in my heart) every single detail of that moment. The smell, the lighting, the silence, the feel, etc. I "stayed" in and savored those moments (though years apart and with two different people) because I tried to ready myself for the foreseen separation with them - my people. And ofcourse, I was never ready. I'm all heart, remember? Nothing is ever really easy.

Both moments were sad moments. And because I remembered those sad moments, I am now sad.

AHAHAHA.
It's funny 'cause I shouldn't be sad. They're all in the past now. And past people don't and can't make me sad, they're at the freaking past already.

ANYWAYS.

Third point.

Grey's made me realize that people, as in EVERYONE, wears a mask. One way or another, we all keep something inside. We decide for ourselves and even as we say that we do or don't do things for other people, deeper inside, we do or don't do it for ourselves. Everyone walks around trying to show off this person that they are partially not. We all live in partiality. Everyone in and out of Grey's Anatomy live in partiality. And that makes me sad.

And that makes me sad why? Because in Grey's each of them has their person. The person is the human being who has gone beyond the mask and has undestood your whole being. He or she knows you COMPLETELY and not in partials. And as though you keep it inside, your person still knows. He or she can predict you. He or she knows how you work and he or she has read your manual. He or she can handle you no matter what.

Meredith has Christina and vice versa.
Shepherd has Sloan and vice versa.
Bailey has the Chief and vice versa.
Izzie has George and vice versa.

And my problem is.. I don't have my person. Well, atleast, I don't have one anymore. And what I'm saying is ... I need one. You know, I need that constant person who gets you through and through and knows what happened to you today and yesterday and the day before that and gets why you're acting like this and like that at particular moments.


Haays.
Grey's got into me today.
They're all dark and cloudy and whiny.


And now I wonder why it still feels kinda good.



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THINGS THAT HAPPENED LAST SATURDAY:

1. We had the anniv last saturday.
Don't know what happened there.

I TOTALLY forgot about the kakanin.
I remembered it while I was taking my pharm chem exam.
What a day.

2. I witnessed young love.
Between Andrew and Monica.

I mean, I could just see through his eyes how he truly cares for Monica. He laughs when she laughs, he steals glances and he stares at times. It's cute. I like them together. They are both good people who will have a happy family in the future. Plus, they're both musically inclined. Their future kids will be bombarded with music genes.

3. Got in an adventure with my sister and her friend, Yumi.
We bought DVDs (I bought 3 - Grey's, House and Desperate Housewives), got offered free pictorials, ate in a noodle house and walked from St. Francis back to Galeria.

It was a spontaneous night.

4. I bought a Nicholas Sparks book :)
Message in a Bottle
They all say it's good.


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TOMORROW.
SOMEONE WILL BE P4500 RICHER.

Damn.
38 concert DVDs and the WHOLE Kimsamsoon series plus ALL the Songbird Sings episodes.

DAMN.
I am so damn excited!!! >.<


Tomorrow.
12NN.
Sta. Lucia
Expressions
Regh is tha neym


I CAN'T WAIT.



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I feel bad that a lot of artists are copying the packaging of Regine's Low Key album! There's Agot Isidro, Zsa Zsa Padilla and Christian Bautista!!!

Why are you all going for the same kind of material?
And why are you copying the same proportions?

AMP.

Anyways. Speaking of Christian Bautista...

I really love Christian and Regine's rendition of My Girl, My Woman, My Friend.
A Jose Mari Chan song. :)

It's a lovely duet <3


when my work is through at the end of the day
there's nothing else that i'd rather do
than to be with you at the end of the day
to be right by your side makes me feel brand new



you're my man and i'm at the prime of my life
to you i give myself, all my heart
all of what i am at the prime of my life
i'll never let a thing come to break us apart


I used to like Jose Mari Chan and now,
I like him again! :)

I shall download him soon!


Regine and Christian:


She's fat right now. I saw her awhile ago in SOP and she definitely looks chubbier compared to a few months ago. Maybe the migraine's really got into her and she can't go on a diet. That's what the press says. But whatever, I just want her migraine to go away :'(


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P.S.

Because of Grey's Anatomy, I wasn't really able to go Regine-ing today.

It's different today :)

Twenty concert (Opening)

It was just so personal and touching <3

Narito ako na lagi ng nakatingin sa mga ulap at bituin
puso't isip ko ay iisa ang hiwatig
Narito ako, umiibig



Naalala nyo ba ang aking istorya
Mula ng ako ay nagsimula
Unang awit na aking namemorya
Ay turo ni Mang Gerry
Habang nag-gigitara naman si Mommy V
Nais nyo bang marinig?



At buhat nang kita'y masilayan
Bawat masda'y ko'y kariktan
Sulat ay sadyang kaligayahan
Na magbuhat sa iyo buhay yaring buhay



Nang ako'y mga anim na taong gulang
Sumakay sa barko at lumuwas ng Maynila
Upang sumali sa isang radio singing contest
Ang tita Betty... Kaya lang natalo ako, pero okay lang



Nais ko lang umawit,
Pangarap ko ay makakamit
Nais ko, ang nais ko'y...



Noon pa man akin nang pinapangarap,
tinitingala, at inaabangan
Aking napanood bawat pelikula
kahit sa kapitbahay kami'y mangutang pa
My idol si Sharon Cuneta



Mr. DJ can I make a request
Pwede ba yong lovesong ko...



Hanggang sa maka relate ako nang sabihin nyang
"bukas luluhod ang mga tala"
Nang pinagsarhan ng kapitbahay ng bintana
Habang nakikinood kami ng Wonderwoman
At napilitang umuwing may luha sa mata



Unti-unting mararating kalingitan at bituin
Unti-unting kinabukasan ko'y magniningning
Hawak ngayo'y tibay ng damdamin
Bukas naman sa 'king paggising
Kapiling ko'y pangarap na bituin...



Sari-saring singing contest aking nasalihan
Kadalasa'y nagwawagi minsan di'y talunan
At minsan pa nga sa gitna ng aking pag-awit
Nalaglag ang aking half-slip na suot ko
Buti na lang bagay sa aking awitin kong...



Bakit ako mahihiya..
Sabay lukso ngunit nag-uwi naman ng tropeyo



"Ang Bagong Kampeon - Si Chona Velasquez" (voice over)



In your eyes, I can see the reasons why our love's alive
In your eyes, we're drifting safely back to shore
I think I've fin'lly learned to love you more...



Nais ko lang umawit..
Pangarap ko ay makakamit
Ang nais, ang nais ko'y
Narito..
Narito..




Narito ako umiibig.. (full song)



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774 posts today.
Started March 2004.

WHEW.

Tagal na talaga ng blog na 'to.
Di parin nawawala.

Gano na kaya karami yung naging layout at URL mo noh?
I used to call you something... wait..

Mr. Ronald?
Ata. Di ako sure :))

Or yun yung tawag ko sa dati kong diary.
Di lang ako sure.

Warning: Another Regine Post

Kung 20 years ba si Regine sa Showbusiness nung Oct. 14, 2006,
edi... Happy 22 years TODAY! :)


The girl who just wanted to sing is now
an icon, a fighter, a survivor and a winner.
The girl who just wanted to sing,
at 20 years in the business,
still reigns supreme as
the one and only Songbird.

Long live the Queen of Songbirds!




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So here I am, in Starbucks Rob, at 7am, watching Regine's Video of her concert Twenty.


I shouldn't be, though.

Here's the story.


I came here to finish up my CommIII speech plan and speeches for friday. I'm planning to stay until 9.45am and then proceed to my class, which is Pharm Chem Lecture.

I didn't bring my ipod charger, that's why I decided to just listen to Regine on Imeem. When I logged on to my Imeem account, I browsed through my playlists and decided to listen to the audio of her Twenty concert. It lasts for atleast two hours, and that's just perfect 'cause I'll be here for atleast two hours. Then while I was listening, I wondered if I watched this concert live. The initial answer was "No". 'Cause I couldn't remember distinctly what happened in the concert. So, to refresh my memory, I went to youtube and searched for it. I finally found it and the more I watched, the more I felt like, "YES, I watched this concert!" Then came this internal battler inside my head of...


No, you didn't watch it!
You were busy with school!
YES YOU WATCHED IT!
DON'T YOU REMEMBER HER DANCING ONSTAGE LIKE THE PCD!
NO! THAT WASN'T THE SAME CONCERT!

I really couldn't remember if I watched it or not. So, to know if I did or didn't watch it. I went to my blog archives.....

I was nervous. The youtube video was dated Oct. 22, 2006. So I went to my blog post on that day and if ever I did watch, there would definitely be a post about it. Then, I saw the Oct. 22 post, there was nothing about the concert on it, although I greeted regine for her 20 years in the business. Haay. My heart frowned. The Twenty concert was one of her most touching and MOST AMAZING concerts ever (after R2K) and I couldn't believe I missed it. (I blamed school. Wahaha.)

But then....

When I scrolled down to my Oct. 15 post.
Here's what I found.


Reposted: Snippets of the Oct. 15, 2006 post

Regine Velasquez,



You make my heart skip,
leap, hop, run, slow down,
pace fast, cry, whine and die....



ALL AT THE SAME TIME.



You are so amazing.



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I don't care what you guys say.
But.. Regine is my... love. ;)



Haaay.



Since grade5 pa 'to.
And it just grows everytime I hear her sing.
As in, EVERY TIME. Every single song. <3 haaay.



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May isang parte dun sa concert. Kumakanta siya. At biglang hindi ko napansin.. Lumuluha na'ko. Hindi ko alam kung dahil ba miss ko lang siya ng sobra sobra, o dahil ba dun sa kanta niya, o baka dahil sa paraan ng pagkanta niya.



Hindi ko alam.



Pero alam niyo kung ano yung kanta?



I Don't Want To Miss A Thing.



Yeah.
Hanep bumirit yung babaeng yun.
Parang walang bukas.



At sana nga walang bukas.
Sana buong gabi lang siya kumanta dun.



Kaya kasi ni Regine na..
"Paiyakin" yung kanta.
Kaya niyang "Patawanin"
Kaya niyang ilabas KAHIT ANONG emosyon nung kanta.
Kaya niyang "pagalawin" yung kanta.
Kaya niyang "BUHAYIN" yun kanta.



At kung yun palang nagagawa niya. Pano pa kaya ang magpaiyak at magpatawa at magpagaan ng loob ng tao?



Lahat yan nagagawa niya sa pagkanta LANG.



Haay.
Garabe na tlga.



AY, ETO PA, ALAM NIYO BA!!!
SUMAYAW SIYA!



OO. TAMA.



SUMAYAW SI REGINE VELASQUEZ.
Ahahahaha. Ang cute niya, swear.



At hulaan niyo kung ano ung sinayawan niya?



Abah. Buttons at Don't Cha lng naman.
Walang wala na ang PCD sa kanya.
Talong-talo na.



ANG CUTE TLAGA.



AHAHAHAHA.
Kinuhanan ni Daddy ng video. Gaarabe.
I could watch it everyday.
Without stop.



[Take note: sobrang lapit namin sa stage. Thanks Tita A. <3]



I loved it when she sang In Your Eyes at Sana Maulit Muli.
Wala lang. Two of my faves.



Tsaka pala Dadalhin. ;)




HOLY CRAP.
I WAS ABLE TO WATCH IT!
I THOUGHT SO!
I REMEMBER HER DANCING TO THE TUNE OF DON'T CHA!!


My heart would totally crumble if I wasn't able to watch it. Haaay. A tear kinda fell when I realized that I was one of those few people to witness that concert. Damn. I can't believe it.


Kasi naman eh.. Oct. 13 and 14 pala yung concert. NOT Oct. 22 and 23.

That's why every 13th of October, I always felt like I should be celebrating something. I just couldn't remember what.

Which is why KYLA ERIKA BUENAFE, learn to DOCUMENT and keep the tickets, okay?!



Haay. Wala lang. I'm just so happy.


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Twenty concert screen caps:


This was when she was kinda crying when she
was telling us about her childhood days.
Well, she cried a lot that night.


This was when she was dancing to Don't Cha and Buttons!!! :))


This was when she was singing What Kind of Fool I Am....


...sitting FREAKING down!!!



You know how hard that is?!?!

So far.

I haven't really updated lately.
A lot of things happened.

There's Ondoy.
Then suspension of classes.
No electricity, no water, no net.
Then there's the resumption of classes.
Then there's the gazilions of requirements.
Then examSSS.
Then social breakdown.
Then the social dance final performance.

Then I'm back here.

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Well, I want to talk about the Social Dance finals. :)

It was held last week, thursday.
5-7.30pm at the Little Theater.

All the PE Dance classes were required to present a 5-minute dance. And it was a competition! Oh yeah. Our class, my social dance class, competed with 3 other classes. And guess what? We won 2nd place! OHA. And to think that we only practiced, as in really practiced for 4 hours! 4 HOURS! Ahahaha. Whattacrammers. Anyways. So yeah, it was fun. Even though I know I screwed 60% of my dance, whatever, it was fun :)

I'm gonna miss my social dance class but sadly I have decided to not take any performing arts PE or whatever for the next...5 years. Ahahaha :))


Here are some pictures.
Actually, there are more pics. But naturally, I just saved the picture where I am in :) And I think these are my ONLY pictures. I wasn't feeling so hot that night, wasn't in the mood for pictures.





Proof of how bangag and wasted I was that night.

Why do I always have these kinds of pictures? :))
AHAHAHA.



Haay. I'm so fat na.


I started the MRT two days ago :)
No stops yet.
Hope this continues.



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I'm off to a debut later.
Debut ni Pat na sobrang DELAYED na. 2 weeks nang naPostpone.
Sa may Dreemhaus, somewhere in J.Nakpil :)
Hosts kami ni Char.
At pupunta rin si Ginelle. Oha.





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Too cute.




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Note: I have 3 more exams this week.

AYOKO NA SA PINAS

EFFING SCREW PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION
SCREW THE POLLUTION
SCREW TRAFFIC
SCREW THE TYPHOON
SCREW THE BROWNOUT

SCREW UPM
SCREW MY COURSE

SCREW THE EFFING PHILIPPINES


KAKAUWI KO LANG.
2 exam namin bukas.
Ph Ch at Chem.

Ondoy post will come later.. For now...

WAIT LANG AH.

KINIKILIG LANG AKO.


WAAAAAAAAAAAIT.
Grabe. I can feel the tingling sensation!!!
It's been a long time since I last felt this!
Damn. Abot sa mga kamay ko!!!




Sorry.
Nagpapakaadik na naman ako.



Cge, off to trabaho na.


Btw, 2nd Physics51 exam awhile ago was...SHIT.

And another btw, LAST PHARM CHEM 125 LAB TODAY.
AND WE FREAKING GUESSED THE UNKNOWN RIGHT!!!
MACAROWNIH BAYBEH.

Kahit 5 points lang yun :'(