Oo na. Wala pa akong nagagawang matinong homework. ~x(
Haaaay.
In fairness, teachers do makes sense now.
And I'm really starting to like Ms. Guevarra.
(I told you teachers make sense now.)
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It's really official now.
ACCEPTANCE is LOVE.
1 month now and I still haven't gotten tired of Acceptance. Waaaw. That's a record.
GOSH. One whole month, 15 times my batteries have recharged, Lotsa hours of music playing and all for one band? That's gotta be something.
AND I have yet (ui, Ms. Sarenas!) to download the songs of the following groups/artist/bands:
Jimme Eat World, Weezer, Rlient K, Sugarcult, The Offspring, American Hi-Fi, The All American Rejects, Senses Fail, Taking Back Sunday, Lit, Fall Out Boy, Snow Patrol, Fountains of Wayne, The Hives, Story of the Year, Hoobastank, Creed, Funeral for a Friend, Lustra, Dishwalla, My Chemical Romance, Lost Prophets, The Ataris, Athenaeum, Good Charlotte, 3 Doors Down, Hawthorne Heights, Nirvana, The Rocket Summer, Anberlin, Foo Fighters, Nickelback, Switchfoot, Skye Sweetnam, Saving Jane, Liliz, Linkin Park, The Counting Crows .....
Ohyan. Cge lang, Kyla.
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I SWEAR I will name the very first dog I own, JACK!
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Whatever.
Gagawa pa ako ng apat na linya.
At ng tono.
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Sakit!
Alas-tres ng umaga, nagising ako.
Hindi yun madalas mangyari.
Minsan nagigising ako dahil nanaginip ako at parang bangungot na siya.
Kaya't bigla-biglaan akong nagigising na parang lumindol.
Pero kanina nagising ako dahil.....
Ang sakit ng ulo ko.
Napapadalas na rin toh.
At ginising pa talaga ako ng pabugso-bugsong impit sa ulo ko.
Sana man lang hinintay nalang niya ang umaga para naman may nagawa ako.
Pero ayun eh. Ginising niya ako.
At hindi ko naman alam ang rason.
Dapat ba alam ko?
May sakit na ba ako?
Kung oo, YEHEY.
Gusto ko ngang magkasakit eh.
Cancer, HIV, Tumor, AIDS, Hemmorhoid, SARS, Birdflu.
Lahat na.
Kahit ano diyan, pwede.
Basta kahit ano na makakapagiba sa direksyon ng buhay ko ngayon.
Hindi naman sa nagsasawa ako sa mundo ko.
Gusto ko lang ng isang "life-changing" incident.
Yung tipong gulay na ako sa kama at wala na akong ibang magawa kung hindi magdasal.
Kasi, alam mo, wala ng epekto sa akin ang mga retreat retreat eh. Gusto kong maging close kami. Gusto ko talga.
At siguro, ang pagkakaroon nalang nang isang malubhang sakit ang tanging paraan para makilala ko Siya ng tuluyan. Gusto ko kasi magkita kami sa paraan ng pasakit oh kaya naman ng paghihinagpis.
Oo na, nagiilusyon na naman ako. At siguro napakaimposibleng magka-Cancer ako, dahil ang sexy ko. Pero isa yun sa siyam napu't siyam na hiling ko sa buhay,
Ang magkasakit.
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Ok. Ang labo nun, pero blog ko toh.
At least, ako gets ko siya. :)
Hindi yun madalas mangyari.
Minsan nagigising ako dahil nanaginip ako at parang bangungot na siya.
Kaya't bigla-biglaan akong nagigising na parang lumindol.
Pero kanina nagising ako dahil.....
Ang sakit ng ulo ko.
Napapadalas na rin toh.
At ginising pa talaga ako ng pabugso-bugsong impit sa ulo ko.
Sana man lang hinintay nalang niya ang umaga para naman may nagawa ako.
Pero ayun eh. Ginising niya ako.
At hindi ko naman alam ang rason.
Dapat ba alam ko?
May sakit na ba ako?
Kung oo, YEHEY.
Gusto ko ngang magkasakit eh.
Cancer, HIV, Tumor, AIDS, Hemmorhoid, SARS, Birdflu.
Lahat na.
Kahit ano diyan, pwede.
Basta kahit ano na makakapagiba sa direksyon ng buhay ko ngayon.
Hindi naman sa nagsasawa ako sa mundo ko.
Gusto ko lang ng isang "life-changing" incident.
Yung tipong gulay na ako sa kama at wala na akong ibang magawa kung hindi magdasal.
Kasi, alam mo, wala ng epekto sa akin ang mga retreat retreat eh. Gusto kong maging close kami. Gusto ko talga.
At siguro, ang pagkakaroon nalang nang isang malubhang sakit ang tanging paraan para makilala ko Siya ng tuluyan. Gusto ko kasi magkita kami sa paraan ng pasakit oh kaya naman ng paghihinagpis.
Oo na, nagiilusyon na naman ako. At siguro napakaimposibleng magka-Cancer ako, dahil ang sexy ko. Pero isa yun sa siyam napu't siyam na hiling ko sa buhay,
Ang magkasakit.
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Ok. Ang labo nun, pero blog ko toh.
At least, ako gets ko siya. :)
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
At sumasakit na naman ng pagkasobra-sobra ang ulo ko.
At naiinis ako.
At hindi pa ako gumagawa ng homework.
At nakakainis yun.
At ok naman ang araw ko.
At nakakainis ang mga tao.
At ang sakit pa rin ng ulo ko.
At sobra sobra na talaga.
At feeling ko umiikot ang paligid ko.
At dahil siguro yun sa sakit ng ulo ko.
At natatalo na rin ako sa poker.
At hindi pa talga ako gumagawa ng homework.
At nakakainis yun.
Pero masakit na talaga ulo ko.
At nakakainis yun.
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viEnn.
SORRY.
=======
Wouldn't it be nice to have breast cancer? Or HIV? Or AIDS?
At naiinis ako.
At hindi pa ako gumagawa ng homework.
At nakakainis yun.
At ok naman ang araw ko.
At nakakainis ang mga tao.
At ang sakit pa rin ng ulo ko.
At sobra sobra na talaga.
At feeling ko umiikot ang paligid ko.
At dahil siguro yun sa sakit ng ulo ko.
At natatalo na rin ako sa poker.
At hindi pa talga ako gumagawa ng homework.
At nakakainis yun.
Pero masakit na talaga ulo ko.
At nakakainis yun.
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SORRY.
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Wouldn't it be nice to have breast cancer? Or HIV? Or AIDS?
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
I'M TIRED.
I'm tired of saying I'm tired because I think people are tired of hearing me say I'm tired. but really.. I'm tired.
..and I should be doing HW now, but hey, I gotta take a quick "blog-updating" break.
People have been asking ...
"Why 'gnkm'?"
(Ok fine. Si Mars lang nagtanong. Pero tao rin siya diba?)
Well, first, I hated the Cashierlane07 whatever. It was cool at first. But after a few weeks..... "Ano raw? Cashierlane?"
Then. I thought of a new URL. I looked at the keyboard. and there it was, UIOP! The four letters laying side by side there somewhere! (uuuuuiii. tumingin nmn siya sa keyboard!) Ang cute sobra.
http://uiop.blogspot.com
ANG CUTE, DIBA?
BUT! Unfortunately, that URL was already taken. So I tried
a bunch of other letters. From ASDF, to HJKL, to QWER but everything were mysteriously taken already! So, wala lang, I did a four-letter combination from out of nowhere. And there it was, GNKM! And I actually like it. (for some obvious reasons...) but yeah, I think I'm gonna settle for this already. Not that anyone would actually be visiting this stupid blog. (Whoops. Sorry my dear blog, I love you a lot. really. You come next after Mr. Ronald. Hmm. That is, kasi 2 nalang kayong "journal" ko. x| )
Ok. FYI. Mr. Ronald is my beloved diary. And I love him a LOT. Though I think he's a bit off lately due to lack of stories and thoughts. Well, I don't talk to him much now when ironically, this is the period of my life that an outlet, a confidante (or confidant?), like him, would really be much of use. So yeah.
RONALD, magusap nga tayo! MATAGAL AH! Gusto ko 20 pages. ;)
=======
And now I realize that really life is a box of chocolates you don't know what you're getting next. (Ok. whatever. basta something like that...)
One super dismal afternoon, I found myself contradicting the words I uttered before. I used to openly and righteously say that in life, everything is a matter of choice. But I guess, I was wrong.
You can never explain life and how it works. Life is very inexplicable. Life is so devastatingly complicated. No precise words from the dictionary can ever define life. One minute, everything's in place, the next, it falls apart. Haaay. Life is such a rollercoaster. No matter how fun the ride can be, you will never see the loose railing and then BOOG, the next minute your dead, head cracked open, sprawled on the ground.
Many a times, people will just come from out of nowhere and will disrupt the life you've planned for years. Because being in control is not a constant thing. Madaming manggugulo. Madaming eepal. Madaming sisingit.
Wouldn't it be nice to be plain adventurous sometimes? To experiment? To be risky? To just go on and not know what may come next? Well yes. Sometimes, it can be fun but there will always be consequences to be faced. Not everything in this world can be done by plan. Nor can be faced with total carelessness.
Because life is not about what comes next. It's not about what fate consistently gives us. It's not about days being such a wild chase of happiness and despair. It's not about the myriad puzzle pieces one must find to attain complete satisfaction. It's not about how low or high one person can be. And its not entirely about your choices, his choices, her choices, my choices.
It's about God.
His plans. His offers. His love.
for you. for me. for us.
=======
So, that wasn't really Kyla-ish.
Gosh. Totally not.
=======
First Day.
Hoy Kyla, Oras na.
First Day.
Time to put your game face on.
First Day.
The time to put on the mask once again, Kyla. It's time to get it out of that closet where you've been keeping it these last few months. It's the time to laugh again. To be happy and be the Kyla you were the first day of your 2nd year.
Remember?
Oh! Kyla's hella funny.
Kyla's fun.
Kyla's F-U-N!
Maganda nga namang makita niyo siyang nakangiti, nakatawa at siyempre, magulo. Ayos yun. At least, sa ganiton paraan mapapasaya niya ang ibang tao.
Diba nga, taga-balance ng masaya at di gaanong masaya ang trabaho na niya ngayon?
Isama mo narin ang pagiging janitress ng bayan!
=======
Oo na. Matatawag ko nang ilusiyonada ang sarili ko.
Siyamnapu't Siyam na bagay na gusto ko sa buhay, halos lalabing-anim lang ang meron ako.
Haaaay. Buhay nga naman.
Eh ganun ba talaga kahirap mangarap? Parang hangin na lagi mong nararamdaman pero hinding hindi mo makita.
Haaaay. Buhay nga naman.
Oo na. 7 o'clock na ng gabi. Wala paring nagagawang homework, tapos antok na ako.
Haaaay. Buhay nga naman.
Hay nako. Alam kong hindi niyo alam. Alam kong hindi ko alam. Pero, alam mo ba sayo ako kumukuha ng lakas. Hindi dahil sa nakikita kitang napakalakas. Kundi dahil sa simpleng dahilan na kahit ngiti mo lang, ok na ako. Seryoso.
Alam kong wala na akong nagagawa para mapangiti kita at mapagaan ko loob mo. Pasensiya.
=======
I love bread.
I love butter.
But most especially,
We love each other.
ANG CUUUUUUUUUUUTE NOH?!
Unang beses ko narinig parang
"WAAAAAAAAW! ANG CUUUUTE!"
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ISANG HIMALA.
Close kami ni Mia. (Buenafe ah)
Alam mo yun,
nagkakamustahan.
naguusap.
nagke-kwentuhan.
ISANG HINDI INAAKALANG PANGYAYARI.
At ito ay nangyayari dahil ....
sabay na kaming gumawa ng homework ngayon.
Dati, nauuna siya. Alas siyete palang tulog na siya.
Tapos ako... ayun. Nanonood pa rin ng TV.
Pero ngayon. Ibang klase.
=======
THIS YEAR WOULD BE INTERESTING.
YES.
I BELIEVE IT WILL BE.
THOUGH IT MAY SEEM TO BE INEVITABLY TIRING AND HECTIC,
I STILL THINK, THIS YEAR WOULD BE INTERESTING.
People are soooo comPLIcated.
Right Mia?
Right Paula?
Right CA?
Right Teresa?
Right Sara?
Oh diba. May comPLIcated group na ngayon!
Ahahahaha.
=======
HAPPY
BIRTHDAY,
CHERYL!
Sana nagustuhan mo na si Sir Al pa ang bumati sayo.
Yikee. <3
Dapat nga may roses pa. Kaso baka mabuko kayo!
Ahahaha.
BIRO LANG. :)
I'm tired of saying I'm tired because I think people are tired of hearing me say I'm tired. but really.. I'm tired.
..and I should be doing HW now, but hey, I gotta take a quick "blog-updating" break.
People have been asking ...
"Why 'gnkm'?"
(Ok fine. Si Mars lang nagtanong. Pero tao rin siya diba?)
Well, first, I hated the Cashierlane07 whatever. It was cool at first. But after a few weeks..... "Ano raw? Cashierlane?"
Then. I thought of a new URL. I looked at the keyboard. and there it was, UIOP! The four letters laying side by side there somewhere! (uuuuuiii. tumingin nmn siya sa keyboard!) Ang cute sobra.
http://uiop.blogspot.com
ANG CUTE, DIBA?
BUT! Unfortunately, that URL was already taken. So I tried
a bunch of other letters. From ASDF, to HJKL, to QWER but everything were mysteriously taken already! So, wala lang, I did a four-letter combination from out of nowhere. And there it was, GNKM! And I actually like it. (for some obvious reasons...) but yeah, I think I'm gonna settle for this already. Not that anyone would actually be visiting this stupid blog. (Whoops. Sorry my dear blog, I love you a lot. really. You come next after Mr. Ronald. Hmm. That is, kasi 2 nalang kayong "journal" ko. x| )
Ok. FYI. Mr. Ronald is my beloved diary. And I love him a LOT. Though I think he's a bit off lately due to lack of stories and thoughts. Well, I don't talk to him much now when ironically, this is the period of my life that an outlet, a confidante (or confidant?), like him, would really be much of use. So yeah.
RONALD, magusap nga tayo! MATAGAL AH! Gusto ko 20 pages. ;)
=======
And now I realize that really life is a box of chocolates you don't know what you're getting next. (Ok. whatever. basta something like that...)
One super dismal afternoon, I found myself contradicting the words I uttered before. I used to openly and righteously say that in life, everything is a matter of choice. But I guess, I was wrong.
You can never explain life and how it works. Life is very inexplicable. Life is so devastatingly complicated. No precise words from the dictionary can ever define life. One minute, everything's in place, the next, it falls apart. Haaay. Life is such a rollercoaster. No matter how fun the ride can be, you will never see the loose railing and then BOOG, the next minute your dead, head cracked open, sprawled on the ground.
Many a times, people will just come from out of nowhere and will disrupt the life you've planned for years. Because being in control is not a constant thing. Madaming manggugulo. Madaming eepal. Madaming sisingit.
Wouldn't it be nice to be plain adventurous sometimes? To experiment? To be risky? To just go on and not know what may come next? Well yes. Sometimes, it can be fun but there will always be consequences to be faced. Not everything in this world can be done by plan. Nor can be faced with total carelessness.
Because life is not about what comes next. It's not about what fate consistently gives us. It's not about days being such a wild chase of happiness and despair. It's not about the myriad puzzle pieces one must find to attain complete satisfaction. It's not about how low or high one person can be. And its not entirely about your choices, his choices, her choices, my choices.
It's about God.
His plans. His offers. His love.
for you. for me. for us.
=======
So, that wasn't really Kyla-ish.
Gosh. Totally not.
=======
First Day.
Hoy Kyla, Oras na.
First Day.
Time to put your game face on.
First Day.
The time to put on the mask once again, Kyla. It's time to get it out of that closet where you've been keeping it these last few months. It's the time to laugh again. To be happy and be the Kyla you were the first day of your 2nd year.
Remember?
Oh! Kyla's hella funny.
Kyla's fun.
Kyla's F-U-N!
Maganda nga namang makita niyo siyang nakangiti, nakatawa at siyempre, magulo. Ayos yun. At least, sa ganiton paraan mapapasaya niya ang ibang tao.
Diba nga, taga-balance ng masaya at di gaanong masaya ang trabaho na niya ngayon?
Isama mo narin ang pagiging janitress ng bayan!
=======
Oo na. Matatawag ko nang ilusiyonada ang sarili ko.
Siyamnapu't Siyam na bagay na gusto ko sa buhay, halos lalabing-anim lang ang meron ako.
Haaaay. Buhay nga naman.
Eh ganun ba talaga kahirap mangarap? Parang hangin na lagi mong nararamdaman pero hinding hindi mo makita.
Haaaay. Buhay nga naman.
Oo na. 7 o'clock na ng gabi. Wala paring nagagawang homework, tapos antok na ako.
Haaaay. Buhay nga naman.
Hay nako. Alam kong hindi niyo alam. Alam kong hindi ko alam. Pero, alam mo ba sayo ako kumukuha ng lakas. Hindi dahil sa nakikita kitang napakalakas. Kundi dahil sa simpleng dahilan na kahit ngiti mo lang, ok na ako. Seryoso.
Alam kong wala na akong nagagawa para mapangiti kita at mapagaan ko loob mo. Pasensiya.
=======
I love butter.
But most especially,
We love each other.
ANG CUUUUUUUUUUUTE NOH?!
Unang beses ko narinig parang
"WAAAAAAAAW! ANG CUUUUTE!"
=======
ISANG HIMALA.
Close kami ni Mia. (Buenafe ah)
Alam mo yun,
nagkakamustahan.
naguusap.
nagke-kwentuhan.
ISANG HINDI INAAKALANG PANGYAYARI.
At ito ay nangyayari dahil ....
sabay na kaming gumawa ng homework ngayon.
Dati, nauuna siya. Alas siyete palang tulog na siya.
Tapos ako... ayun. Nanonood pa rin ng TV.
Pero ngayon. Ibang klase.
=======
THIS YEAR WOULD BE INTERESTING.
YES.
I BELIEVE IT WILL BE.
THOUGH IT MAY SEEM TO BE INEVITABLY TIRING AND HECTIC,
I STILL THINK, THIS YEAR WOULD BE INTERESTING.
People are soooo comPLIcated.
Right Mia?
Right Paula?
Right CA?
Right Teresa?
Right Sara?
Oh diba. May comPLIcated group na ngayon!
Ahahahaha.
=======
BIRTHDAY,
CHERYL!
Sana nagustuhan mo na si Sir Al pa ang bumati sayo.
Yikee. <3
Dapat nga may roses pa. Kaso baka mabuko kayo!
Ahahaha.
BIRO LANG. :)
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
A hopeful poem
that came so unexpectedly from out of nowhere.
Yes. I made this, still in complete uniform, when I arrived home and was just about to eat dinner.
The Hope Beneath The Light
And there it was, along the tunnel
The flickering light appears
Sprinting lies, escaping hell
And cursing life for fear
A light once clenched between closed hands
Now lies exposed and hurt
A used to be forever band
Now lies over disgusting dirt
And yes the light once kept was gone
Obscured by lonely walls
And time has passed, forever gone
In the middle of all stalls
And then amidst the blatant noise
A fleeting call reverbs
Shouting words of a lonely voice
As if dog-tailed by a curse
The voice, it yells above all town
Her stand in this pointless game
Hoping words won't let her down
She's calling her lover's name
Her words just seem so meaningless
Her words for the lonely light
Those pretending stories we confess
In the middle of a fight
The shameful call receives no reply
From the one who holds the light
It was useless to even try
For she just lost the fight
Her fight for love and deliverance
Seemed endless yet just finished
There's no more room for any chance
It was wrong to take the risk
that came so unexpectedly from out of nowhere.
Yes. I made this, still in complete uniform, when I arrived home and was just about to eat dinner.
And there it was, along the tunnel
The flickering light appears
Sprinting lies, escaping hell
And cursing life for fear
A light once clenched between closed hands
Now lies exposed and hurt
A used to be forever band
Now lies over disgusting dirt
And yes the light once kept was gone
Obscured by lonely walls
And time has passed, forever gone
In the middle of all stalls
And then amidst the blatant noise
A fleeting call reverbs
Shouting words of a lonely voice
As if dog-tailed by a curse
The voice, it yells above all town
Her stand in this pointless game
Hoping words won't let her down
She's calling her lover's name
Her words just seem so meaningless
Her words for the lonely light
Those pretending stories we confess
In the middle of a fight
The shameful call receives no reply
From the one who holds the light
It was useless to even try
For she just lost the fight
Her fight for love and deliverance
Seemed endless yet just finished
There's no more room for any chance
It was wrong to take the risk
..pasensya.
eh nagiimbento lang nmn ako.
at kung ano feel ko. cge lang, batak. :)
eh nagiimbento lang nmn ako.
at kung ano feel ko. cge lang, batak. :)
Monday, June 12, 2006
Mga baon.
LADIES AND GENTLEMEN ...
MGA BAON NI KYLA BAGO MAGPASUKAN.
BAON #1:
FYI:
Ate Janel = pinsan ko.
Tito Bodgie = Daddy ni Ate Janel
Tita Tess = Mommy ni Ate Janel
[stuff inside bracket] = Kyla's thoughts
Isang umaga, habang nagaamulsal kami ng tahimik sa Razon's, may isang usapan ang tunay na bumulabog sa aking isipan ..
Mommy: oh, ilang units ka sa 1st semester, Janel?
Ate Janel: 15 lang. Ang onti nga eh.
Daddy: Onga. Naalala ko dati umaabot pa ako ng 20, 25 eh.
Mommy: Ano ka? Ako nga 30 eh.
Ate Janel: Eh kasi ngayon, nagme-merge na ung subjects. Ung English I and II parang isang subject nalang para once mo na lng kukunin ung subject. Tsaka maximum nang units ngayon 18 units. Ay nga pala, daddy, diba may kinuha tayong application form sa UP para kay Kyla?
Tito Bodgie: Oo, teka kunin ko sa kotse.
[Grabe na Lord, malapit na akong mag-college. AYOKOOOOO PAAAAAAA!]
*pagbalik*
Tito Bodgie: Oh, Kyla eto tignan mo. *Pero si Mia naunang tumingin*
Mommy: Nako, Kyla. Kelangan ipasa mo yang UP oh kung hindi nmn UST. Kelangan may isa dun sa dalawa. Pero kung ako tatanungin mo ako, gusto ko UP ka.
Kyla: Huh? Eh ano na nangyari sa US or Baguio mo?
Mommy: Ano ka ba?! Joke lang un. Pinakaba lang kita.
[poknat ka. talagang pinakaba mo ako.]
Kyla: Ah ganun ba... Eh bakit ba gusto mo ng UP oh ng UST?
Mommy: Eh kasi dun lang ung sa college plan niyong 2 ni Mia.
[aaaaaah. Kaya pala pinagpipilitan ang UP and UST. Kasi may College Educational
Plan. Akala ko naman, dahil gusto niya ung schools na yun. Haaaay. So, Ateneo? Goodbye. Matagal na tayong nagpaalam sa isa't isa. Pero ngayon, totoo na toh.]
Tito Bodgie: Elaine, bsta pagreviewhin mo yang si Kyla, eh papasa nmn yan. Kasi pareho lang halos ung review sa totoong test. Diba, Janel?
Ate Janel: Oo. May items nga lang na one minute mo lng dpat sasagutan. NAKO. may mga lessons akong nabaon ko na eh lalabas pa rin sa test. Magsisimula yan sa 2nd year lessons.
[Pare, ngayon palang nakalimutan ko na lessons ko ng 2nd year. Tsk.]
Ate Janel: Tapos nga pala, kapag ndi mo alam ung sagot, wag mo nang sagutan kasi may minus kapag mali ung sagot mo.
Kyla: O cge.
[So, ok. Guys, maaga pa masyado. Isang taon pa.]
*tinitignan ko yung application*
Tita Tess: Eh, teka, baka naman eh numbered yang application at this year lang pwede, Kyla, tignan mo nga kng may School Year na nakalagay.
Mia: Merong nakalagay nakita ko. School Yeah 07-08.
Ate Janel: Nako, Hindi na siya pwede. Dapat 08-09 yung sayo diba? Kasi sa '08 kapa ga-graduate?
Kyla: Oo.
*tinitignan pa rin ang application*
[katakot mag-college... hmmm. ang daming palang UP sa pinas. UP Baguio, UPEP Pampanga, UP Diliman, UP Manila, UP Los Banos, UP Cebu, UP Tacloban, UP VISAYAS?! Ows talaga meron?, Tapos Mindanao din?! Abaaaah. Ayos toh.
Siopao. And daming course oh. Anthropology, Applied Physics, blah.. blah.. blah.. Asan kaya ung nursing? Molecular Biology and Biotechnology, Music, PHILOSOPHY?! EXCUSE ME?! NASAN ANG LETTER "N"? kala ko ba alphabetical toh?! ASAN YUNG NURSING?! Poknat. WALANG NURSING SA UP DILIMAN!!!]
Kyla: MOMMY! MOMMY! Walang Nursing sa Diliman?!
Ate Janel: Ay oo, sa Manila meron. Pero panget dun.
[shit.]
Mommy: Ah ganun ba? Eh ok lang nmn sa Manila eh.
[Mommy, sabi ni Ate Janel, panget dun...........]
*flash cute puppy eyes!*
Mommy: Hmm. Eh kng ganun, ibang course nalang kunin mo.
Tita Tess: Eh ano bang gusto mo, Kyla?
Mommy: Basta gawin mo gusto mo. Yung favorite mong gawin sa buhay.
[yan na naman yang salitang yan .. "favorite" Wala nga akong favorite sa buhay eh. Ano ba toh.]
Kyla: Eh wala nmn akong gusto eh. Kahit ano.
Tito Bodgie: Eh, Kyla may problema ka ba sa math?
Kyla: Wala nmn po. masyado.
Tito Bodgie: Dapat lang, eh parehong engineer magulang mo eh.
Mommy: Kyla, mag-Chemical Enginieering ka na lang.
Ate Janel: Ay oo! Tama, onti lang kumukuha nun, kaya madali kang makakapasok.
[waaaw. In a flash, nagbago kinabukasan ko. ayos toh.]
Kyla: O cge. Eh ano ba un? May Math ba dun?
Tito Bodgie: Hindi noh! PURO CHEMISTRY YUN. Eh may alam ka ba dun?
Kyla: Wala. Balancing lang! ahahahaha! This year nmn magsisimula na kmi dun eh, tignan ko, baka magustuhan ko.
Mommy:: Eh bahala ka, anak.
Kyla: Hay nako. Tama na nga. May isang taon pa ako.
Mommy: Isang taon na lang kamo.
Kyla: Mommy. Isang taon PA.
BAON #2:
I could say that I'm hating you for this. But I won't 'cause I don't really. I could say that I'm not affected but it's hard to ignore. (and I don't want to ignore it in the first place.. cause duh, its about you.) I could say that I don't care, but I do so that's kinda out of the picture. I could say that I've been an awful lot of help, but I'm not (sabi mo nga.)
And I could say that I'm sorry, you're probably tired of it. But I'm just gonna say it over and over again.
Its funny how you find the right words to say and yet you expect no reply.
Its funny how you figure out what right thing to do and yet you lose the guts to actually execute them. (ui. ang cute. ung "cute" nasa execute. ahaha! Ang cute!)
Its funny how things could've been different with a landline at hand and yet its best to just keep quiet.
Its funny how all I need is to hear you and yet I think talking to me is the last thing on your mind.
It's funny how I think these things are funny on face value but deep inside I don't exactly know what I feel.
It's hard, you know. It's hard when you don't know things. It's pretty damn hard. :) But of course, in MY world. When I don't know stuff. I'm challenged. My brain works overtime and I love that. :)
Oh diba. Looking on the brightside parin.
Ibang klase.
BAON #3:
I don't know anymore how I could show you that I care.
And that I'm here for you.
So, yeah. Magandang pabaon yan.
BAON #4:
During our 2-day thing in Bataan, Ate Janel did this "manghuhula" thing. And she sort of predicted things about my life. (particulary, the part that includes another important person in my life... ah bsta. sa Love daw.)
And after she did these "pick a deck" and "pick a card" kind of things, she flashed me this 1 group of card.
She said,
"This Ace of hearts is you and this Ace of Clubs is the person.. Ikaw yung heart, So that means, mahal mo siya, at siya, Ace of Clubs naman, so ibig sabihin, parang temptation siya."
"Tignan mo, magkatabi yung 2 Ace.. Para kayo niyang 'Against All Odds' niyan. Ang daming parang humahadlang sa inyo. Tignan mo... may mga "Tao" na cards, yan, parents yan or bsta someone na may authority. Meron ding mga Diamonds at Spades. Spades, ibig sabihin niyan, Career. At yung diamond, Kayamanan."
"Ang galing nga eh, ngayon lang ako nakakita ng magkatabi na cards, usually, magkahiwalay, oh may isang card sa gitna oh kaya nmn may isa pang ace! Ibig sabihin may 3rd party! ahahaha. Kawawa naman. Pero naks nmn, Kyla. Ayos yan ah. You're pretty bonded."
MGA BAON NI KYLA BAGO MAGPASUKAN.
BAON #1:
FYI:
Ate Janel = pinsan ko.
Tito Bodgie = Daddy ni Ate Janel
Tita Tess = Mommy ni Ate Janel
[stuff inside bracket] = Kyla's thoughts
Isang umaga, habang nagaamulsal kami ng tahimik sa Razon's, may isang usapan ang tunay na bumulabog sa aking isipan ..
Mommy: oh, ilang units ka sa 1st semester, Janel?
Ate Janel: 15 lang. Ang onti nga eh.
Daddy: Onga. Naalala ko dati umaabot pa ako ng 20, 25 eh.
Mommy: Ano ka? Ako nga 30 eh.
Ate Janel: Eh kasi ngayon, nagme-merge na ung subjects. Ung English I and II parang isang subject nalang para once mo na lng kukunin ung subject. Tsaka maximum nang units ngayon 18 units. Ay nga pala, daddy, diba may kinuha tayong application form sa UP para kay Kyla?
Tito Bodgie: Oo, teka kunin ko sa kotse.
[Grabe na Lord, malapit na akong mag-college. AYOKOOOOO PAAAAAAA!]
*pagbalik*
Tito Bodgie: Oh, Kyla eto tignan mo. *Pero si Mia naunang tumingin*
Mommy: Nako, Kyla. Kelangan ipasa mo yang UP oh kung hindi nmn UST. Kelangan may isa dun sa dalawa. Pero kung ako tatanungin mo ako, gusto ko UP ka.
Kyla: Huh? Eh ano na nangyari sa US or Baguio mo?
Mommy: Ano ka ba?! Joke lang un. Pinakaba lang kita.
[poknat ka. talagang pinakaba mo ako.]
Kyla: Ah ganun ba... Eh bakit ba gusto mo ng UP oh ng UST?
Mommy: Eh kasi dun lang ung sa college plan niyong 2 ni Mia.
[aaaaaah. Kaya pala pinagpipilitan ang UP and UST. Kasi may College Educational
Plan. Akala ko naman, dahil gusto niya ung schools na yun. Haaaay. So, Ateneo? Goodbye. Matagal na tayong nagpaalam sa isa't isa. Pero ngayon, totoo na toh.]
Tito Bodgie: Elaine, bsta pagreviewhin mo yang si Kyla, eh papasa nmn yan. Kasi pareho lang halos ung review sa totoong test. Diba, Janel?
Ate Janel: Oo. May items nga lang na one minute mo lng dpat sasagutan. NAKO. may mga lessons akong nabaon ko na eh lalabas pa rin sa test. Magsisimula yan sa 2nd year lessons.
[Pare, ngayon palang nakalimutan ko na lessons ko ng 2nd year. Tsk.]
Ate Janel: Tapos nga pala, kapag ndi mo alam ung sagot, wag mo nang sagutan kasi may minus kapag mali ung sagot mo.
Kyla: O cge.
[So, ok. Guys, maaga pa masyado. Isang taon pa.]
*tinitignan ko yung application*
Tita Tess: Eh, teka, baka naman eh numbered yang application at this year lang pwede, Kyla, tignan mo nga kng may School Year na nakalagay.
Mia: Merong nakalagay nakita ko. School Yeah 07-08.
Ate Janel: Nako, Hindi na siya pwede. Dapat 08-09 yung sayo diba? Kasi sa '08 kapa ga-graduate?
Kyla: Oo.
*tinitignan pa rin ang application*
[katakot mag-college... hmmm. ang daming palang UP sa pinas. UP Baguio, UPEP Pampanga, UP Diliman, UP Manila, UP Los Banos, UP Cebu, UP Tacloban, UP VISAYAS?! Ows talaga meron?, Tapos Mindanao din?! Abaaaah. Ayos toh.
Siopao. And daming course oh. Anthropology, Applied Physics, blah.. blah.. blah.. Asan kaya ung nursing? Molecular Biology and Biotechnology, Music, PHILOSOPHY?! EXCUSE ME?! NASAN ANG LETTER "N"? kala ko ba alphabetical toh?! ASAN YUNG NURSING?! Poknat. WALANG NURSING SA UP DILIMAN!!!]
Kyla: MOMMY! MOMMY! Walang Nursing sa Diliman?!
Ate Janel: Ay oo, sa Manila meron. Pero panget dun.
[shit.]
Mommy: Ah ganun ba? Eh ok lang nmn sa Manila eh.
[Mommy, sabi ni Ate Janel, panget dun...........]
*flash cute puppy eyes!*
Mommy: Hmm. Eh kng ganun, ibang course nalang kunin mo.
Tita Tess: Eh ano bang gusto mo, Kyla?
Mommy: Basta gawin mo gusto mo. Yung favorite mong gawin sa buhay.
[yan na naman yang salitang yan .. "favorite" Wala nga akong favorite sa buhay eh. Ano ba toh.]
Kyla: Eh wala nmn akong gusto eh. Kahit ano.
Tito Bodgie: Eh, Kyla may problema ka ba sa math?
Kyla: Wala nmn po. masyado.
Tito Bodgie: Dapat lang, eh parehong engineer magulang mo eh.
Mommy: Kyla, mag-Chemical Enginieering ka na lang.
Ate Janel: Ay oo! Tama, onti lang kumukuha nun, kaya madali kang makakapasok.
[waaaw. In a flash, nagbago kinabukasan ko. ayos toh.]
Kyla: O cge. Eh ano ba un? May Math ba dun?
Tito Bodgie: Hindi noh! PURO CHEMISTRY YUN. Eh may alam ka ba dun?
Kyla: Wala. Balancing lang! ahahahaha! This year nmn magsisimula na kmi dun eh, tignan ko, baka magustuhan ko.
Mommy:: Eh bahala ka, anak.
Kyla: Hay nako. Tama na nga. May isang taon pa ako.
Mommy: Isang taon na lang kamo.
Kyla: Mommy. Isang taon PA.
/mga pare, edited version toh. but more or less. pareho lang.
BAON #2:
I could say that I'm hating you for this. But I won't 'cause I don't really. I could say that I'm not affected but it's hard to ignore. (and I don't want to ignore it in the first place.. cause duh, its about you.) I could say that I don't care, but I do so that's kinda out of the picture. I could say that I've been an awful lot of help, but I'm not (sabi mo nga.)
And I could say that I'm sorry, you're probably tired of it. But I'm just gonna say it over and over again.
Its funny how you find the right words to say and yet you expect no reply.
Its funny how you figure out what right thing to do and yet you lose the guts to actually execute them. (ui. ang cute. ung "cute" nasa execute. ahaha! Ang cute!)
Its funny how things could've been different with a landline at hand and yet its best to just keep quiet.
Its funny how all I need is to hear you and yet I think talking to me is the last thing on your mind.
It's funny how I think these things are funny on face value but deep inside I don't exactly know what I feel.
It's hard, you know. It's hard when you don't know things. It's pretty damn hard. :) But of course, in MY world. When I don't know stuff. I'm challenged. My brain works overtime and I love that. :)
Oh diba. Looking on the brightside parin.
Ibang klase.
BAON #3:
I don't know anymore how I could show you that I care.
And that I'm here for you.
So, yeah. Magandang pabaon yan.
BAON #4:
During our 2-day thing in Bataan, Ate Janel did this "manghuhula" thing. And she sort of predicted things about my life. (particulary, the part that includes another important person in my life... ah bsta. sa Love daw.)
And after she did these "pick a deck" and "pick a card" kind of things, she flashed me this 1 group of card.
She said,
"This Ace of hearts is you and this Ace of Clubs is the person.. Ikaw yung heart, So that means, mahal mo siya, at siya, Ace of Clubs naman, so ibig sabihin, parang temptation siya."
"Tignan mo, magkatabi yung 2 Ace.. Para kayo niyang 'Against All Odds' niyan. Ang daming parang humahadlang sa inyo. Tignan mo... may mga "Tao" na cards, yan, parents yan or bsta someone na may authority. Meron ding mga Diamonds at Spades. Spades, ibig sabihin niyan, Career. At yung diamond, Kayamanan."
"Ang galing nga eh, ngayon lang ako nakakita ng magkatabi na cards, usually, magkahiwalay, oh may isang card sa gitna oh kaya nmn may isa pang ace! Ibig sabihin may 3rd party! ahahaha. Kawawa naman. Pero naks nmn, Kyla. Ayos yan ah. You're pretty bonded."
Friday, June 09, 2006
..AN EMO KID NAMED KYLA
So I'm an emo person.
Not that someone actually called me one.
Well, once, a person did. but he's different. He was joking. And he's my oh so hot cousin. And then I did not know what "emo-ness" is.
yeah. I'm stupid.
But yeah. I kinda admit I'm an emo person (whatever that means.) Ok. That was plain ironic. I call myself an emo. But I don't know what it is exactly
hmmm. bizarre.
But yeah. I think I'm an emo kid.
Is it that bad to be an emo?
Hmm. Tsk.
It goes back to that quesition again.
What is it to be an emo kid?
Hmm. Whatever.
I still think I'm an emo.
Oh no, this couldn't be more unexpected
And I can tell that I've been moving in so slow
Don't let it throw you off too far
Cause I'll be running right behind you
Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously
Oohhh, when I'm around you I'm predictable
Cause I believe in loving you at first sight
I know it's crazy but I'm hoping to..
To take a hold of you
Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously
Oh you're everything I'm wanting
Come to think of it, I'm aching
On account of my transgression..
Will you welcome this confession?
Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously
So Contagiously
Acceptance
=======
You can't always be the one to take cover for me. You can't always be the one to stand up for me. You can't always be the one to direct this play. Not that I don't want you to. I just think I need to "grow a backbone". You know, live life not always depending on someone to be there. Don't get me wrong. I need you (and I know you know that.) It's always flattering and sweet to turn to you 'cause you always know how to make me feel better. In fact, all I need to do is pick up the phone and hear your sweet, comforting voice. haaay.
But if that's always the case, dammn.
What will happen to me on my 3rd year in HS?
There'd be times when I'd be all alone facing the worst of all nightmares. It's hard. It's frightening. It's almost death. But I have to conquer it. I have to beat it.
But above all, I thank you. It doesn't sound so sincere. But please just imagine me saying it. :) orite? I know you know that I'm veeeerrrrry glad you've been with me (and will always be? right? promise? ok.) all throughtout. I love you. <3
So you're the one who took the fall
and it's bringing us together
...I know this could last forever.
So I'm an emo person.
Not that someone actually called me one.
Well, once, a person did. but he's different. He was joking. And he's my oh so hot cousin. And then I did not know what "emo-ness" is.
yeah. I'm stupid.
But yeah. I kinda admit I'm an emo person (whatever that means.) Ok. That was plain ironic. I call myself an emo. But I don't know what it is exactly
hmmm. bizarre.
But yeah. I think I'm an emo kid.
Is it that bad to be an emo?
Hmm. Tsk.
It goes back to that quesition again.
What is it to be an emo kid?
Hmm. Whatever.
I still think I'm an emo.
=======
I'm obssessing over another "semi-emo" band.
They are the ACCEPTANCE
darn. So good. So good. So good.
I'm obssessing over another "semi-emo" band.
They are the ACCEPTANCE
darn. So good. So good. So good.
Oh no, this couldn't be more unexpected
And I can tell that I've been moving in so slow
Don't let it throw you off too far
Cause I'll be running right behind you
Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously
Oohhh, when I'm around you I'm predictable
Cause I believe in loving you at first sight
I know it's crazy but I'm hoping to..
To take a hold of you
Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously
Oh you're everything I'm wanting
Come to think of it, I'm aching
On account of my transgression..
Will you welcome this confession?
Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously
So Contagiously
Acceptance
=======
You can't always be the one to take cover for me. You can't always be the one to stand up for me. You can't always be the one to direct this play. Not that I don't want you to. I just think I need to "grow a backbone". You know, live life not always depending on someone to be there. Don't get me wrong. I need you (and I know you know that.) It's always flattering and sweet to turn to you 'cause you always know how to make me feel better. In fact, all I need to do is pick up the phone and hear your sweet, comforting voice. haaay.
But if that's always the case, dammn.
What will happen to me on my 3rd year in HS?
There'd be times when I'd be all alone facing the worst of all nightmares. It's hard. It's frightening. It's almost death. But I have to conquer it. I have to beat it.
But above all, I thank you. It doesn't sound so sincere. But please just imagine me saying it. :) orite? I know you know that I'm veeeerrrrry glad you've been with me (and will always be? right? promise? ok.) all throughtout. I love you. <3
and it's bringing us together
...I know this could last forever.
Thursday, June 08, 2006
drenched in rain.
drained by pain.
was it really the rain or her tears pouring down her face?
shivering.
her heart pounding.
was it because she was cold or because she was nervous?
knees trembling.
head aching.
was it because she was sick,
or because she was scared?
=======
ginelle
we need to talk.
i need...
i need you now. :'((
drained by pain.
was it really the rain or her tears pouring down her face?
shivering.
her heart pounding.
was it because she was cold or because she was nervous?
knees trembling.
head aching.
was it because she was sick,
or because she was scared?
=======
ginelle
we need to talk.
i need...
i need you now. :'((
Monday, June 05, 2006
Sunday, June 04, 2006
For Rachelle:
Alex Burnham: Pick a place. I'll be there, I promise.
Kate Forster: How?
Alex Burnham: She's more real to me than anything I've ever known.
Kate Forster: Ridiculous. For argument's sake, what day is it there?
Alex Burnham: April 14th, 2004.
Kate Forster: No. It's April 14th, 2006.
Alex Burnham: It's the same day two years apart.
Kate Forster: Even though this is clearly impossible, it's amazing.
Alex Burnham: How's your sunset?
Kate Forster: It's perfect.
Alex Burnham: I only wish you were here to share it with me.
Kate Forster: One man I can never meet - him, I would like to give my whole heart to.
=======
And if you have a minute, why don't we go?
Talk about it somewhere only we know.
This could be the end of everything.
So, why don't we go somewhere only know?
DAAAAAAAAAAAMN.
The Lake House
My heart is intensely beating for this movie. Though I haven't seen it, I am seriously crazy about it. You can call me weird for crying over the trailer but... but... dude, this is the first time my heart felt so touched kahit trailer palang.
This is my favorite movie now.
yey. I have a favorite movie now!
..I watch the trailer everyday! haaaay.
<3 love.
Alex Burnham: Pick a place. I'll be there, I promise.
Kate Forster: How?
Alex Burnham: She's more real to me than anything I've ever known.
Kate Forster: Ridiculous. For argument's sake, what day is it there?
Alex Burnham: April 14th, 2004.
Kate Forster: No. It's April 14th, 2006.
Alex Burnham: It's the same day two years apart.
Kate Forster: Even though this is clearly impossible, it's amazing.
Alex Burnham: How's your sunset?
Kate Forster: It's perfect.
Alex Burnham: I only wish you were here to share it with me.
Kate Forster: One man I can never meet - him, I would like to give my whole heart to.
=======
Talk about it somewhere only we know.
This could be the end of everything.
So, why don't we go somewhere only know?
DAAAAAAAAAAAMN.
The Lake House
My heart is intensely beating for this movie. Though I haven't seen it, I am seriously crazy about it. You can call me weird for crying over the trailer but... but... dude, this is the first time my heart felt so touched kahit trailer palang.
This is my favorite movie now.
yey. I have a favorite movie now!
..I watch the trailer everyday! haaaay.
<3 love.
Pick a place. I'll be there. I promise.
HOW?
HOW?
Saturday, June 03, 2006
Friday, June 02, 2006
Apes left me gawking in awe.
WAAAAAW.
I bow down to you, Aprille.
Galing galing mo!
..You, once again, made my day!
THANK YOU!
Thank you for making this new layout for me.
I really really love it. <3
=======
JUNE 14!
LUMAPIT KA NA SA AKIN!
I am calling for June14.
June14. June14. June14.
..where are you?
Ok. FYI: June14 is the showing of The Lake House. :)
Thursday, June 01, 2006
You want me to always remember. I promise I always will. You'll watch and you'll wait for my return. I promise I'm coming home.
For on the lonely nights when your not feeling alive. Look towards a midnight sky and wait for sunrise. This is the life we live, the only one that we know. It seems to never end, never end.
You know that I can't resist this. It's not the time to grieve. It's not the last good bye. I destine for all time low. Did you think before you cut it?
Every time you breathe I hope you think of me. Those are the words you told me, told me.
So when will it end? Sometimes I don't know where I am, or where I'll be. It feels like I'm so far, far away, far away from home.
February
A Thorn For Every Heart
For on the lonely nights when your not feeling alive. Look towards a midnight sky and wait for sunrise. This is the life we live, the only one that we know. It seems to never end, never end.
You know that I can't resist this. It's not the time to grieve. It's not the last good bye. I destine for all time low. Did you think before you cut it?
Every time you breathe I hope you think of me. Those are the words you told me, told me.
So when will it end? Sometimes I don't know where I am, or where I'll be. It feels like I'm so far, far away, far away from home.
February
A Thorn For Every Heart
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