Wednesday, May 31, 2006

this pillow-clutching, knee-trembling, ear-splitting headache I'm having ..groan.

GO AWAY. :'(



Life is really good.

Monday, May 29, 2006

Falalala.

Life is good.
Life is crap.

..ang ganda pakinggan. pero wait lng. i gotta go to the washroom. ;) imma do number 2. (seriously.)

OK. IM BACK. and i feeeeel goood. because life is good. (sabi ko nga dun sa taas.) so, ok. as i try and make out some sense from this entry, naisip ko ... ay mali, naalala ko.

may isang papel na hawak si Tita A, puro qoutes. ang cute tignan. kasi lahat may sense. wala lang. naaliw ako.

edi yun, tinignan ko. nang nadaanan ko ung isa ... sabi:

"you can tell a lot about a person by the way they handle these 3 things:

a rainy day.
a lost luggages.
tangled chrismas tree lights
"


nagulat ako kasi nagkaroon bigla ng isang napakalaking OO NGA NOH moment. tapos sabi ko, ano nga ba gagawin ko kapag nangyari yung mga yun?

rainy day:
i would sit. read. and savor the rhytmic patter of the rain. then i would look through the rain-washed window and fantisize of running around the village under the pouring rain.

a lost luggage:
honestly, i would panic first. different possibilities would flash through my mind, first, the posibility of some crazy dude stealing the lost luggage, then i would try to remember what things were in that luggage that were necessary. then, i would go to the authorities and report about the luggage.

and lastly, i would call my mom. :)

tangled chrismas tree lights:
duh. edi aayusin. :)

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Update sa buhay ko:

Friday
metrowalk. food was just impeccable.
and there, somewhere there, i witnessed a performance on stage. one guitarist. one singer. they were performing Tell Me Where It Hurts. one word for you guys: outstanding. :)

Saturday
calatagan. damn i got darker even more. but i loooooove it. in fact, im not satisfied with how dark i got. kasi gusto ko talga umitim! ..as in todo. but knowing mommy, she would never allow that. she would splatter sunblock all over me and she would make us wear long sleeves. but its all good. i didnt mind. at least, i got darker. and now i look like rudolph the red-nosed reindeer. 'cause that's how it works for me, my nose gets suuper red and everything else is just dark.

saturday night. we slept inside the tent and it was raining hard. and mom, dad, mia and mikmik couldnt sleep. the rain was just pouring hard and it was really noisy. but me? i was sleeping so soundly. yep. sunday morning, mom said that they were amazed at how sleepy i was. i didnt move. whatever sound they made never made move an inch or even open an eye.

ironically, i was having a nightmare then. i dont remember all the details. all i know is when i got up, my heart was pounding so hard.

hmm. the trip could've easily been the happiest trip of my life, but. BUT. one terrible fact bugged, haunted me to death.

...Orange-Faced kept popping out of nowhere. of course, not the real Orange-Faced. but people who looked like him. and i was like, WHAT THE HECK?! Is this a sign of something? i was so pissed and annoyed of me seeing people who looked relatively and closely like him. they were EVERYWHERE! arrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggh. hating. seething.

or was it just the fact that i hated him so much i kept on seeing him anywhere?


Sunday
we went home from calatagan and i realized how much i missed Ernie and Erin.
..and ginelle. :)

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i always said to myself that

It is rather impossible for me to build a house bigger than my dreams.

yess. i admit. i have huge huge dreams. i have plans that, i know, i will never be able to accomplish. they are damn too high and at this rate im going, waaaw. im dead.

i have this one dream job. i know, there isnt any slight possibility that i would be able to live it. pero sabi nga nila, always dream the impossible dream. but this dream is more than impossible for me. only exceptionally skilled people will be perfectly fit for this job. haaaaaaaaaay.

kasi naman eh.

gusto kong maging......

Secret Agent ng FBI.
mahirap ba yun?

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I know you where born a cute, charming and pretty baby that no one can possibly resist pinching your cheeks.

but now, i ask you one question?

WHAT HAPPENED?

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my head has been mysteriously hurting lately. i dont know if its because of my late-night reading sessions or those looooooooong reads during the car rides to and from calatagan. *groann*

next, last night, i fell asleep while reading. so my neck was slightly arched cause i was leaning/lying on the couch. when i woke, DAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMNN, i couldnt rotate my neck. it hurted like hell.

but now, im fine. it only stings when i tilt my head to a certain angle.

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my mom taught me to always have answers to questions. if not, then girl, skip it then guess later.

but now, she faced me with a life-changing question.

US or Baguio?


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IMMA BE AT CHERYL'S HOUSE FROM NOW TILL I DONT KNOW AND IM SO EXCITED! its very timely actually. i needed time away from home. away from everything. a new environment. new surroundings.

because lately, things have been weird and i just couldnt stand it alone. now im with cheryl! woohoo. thanks cheryl. :)

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ate janel will be having her debut this july. sooooooooo excited for her and i miss her a lot. she'll have this swimming-type of debut. (darn. now i wont be able to do that.) yey! im just so thrilled. can't wait.

speaking of the Gabriels (FYI: Janel Gabriel), we're planning to go up to Baguio this thursday till sunday! its still not certain, but im equally excited to see them! i miss them so much. those late-night trekking, heart-pounding, muscle-cramping mountain climbs. waaaaaaaaaaaaaw. just couldnt wait.

..and this all makes me wonder,
why the hell havent we had any outing that involved mountaineering? its almost the end of the summer, and the rains catching up on us, why havent we gone trekking? im missing it so much. i was expecting that this 2-month summer vacation will be filled with mountaineering memories. :'( my summer would never be complete without climbing those steep mountains.

i miss camping. :'((

sana masaya ang 3rd year fieldtrip. i will use that to burst out all my coiled vigor inside for the mountain tops and underground caves.

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im loving Mymp and Carol Banawa. waaaw. Carol and Juris' voices take my breathe away. parang ang lamig ng boses. and duuude, CHIN? IDOL PARE! ang sarap paulit-ulitin sa tenga. tapos sinabayan pa ng ulan. haaaaaaaaaay. life is good. :)

you got a fast car. and i got a plan to get us out of here. i been working at the convenience store. managed to save just a little bit of money. we won't have to drive too far. just 'cross the border and into the city. you and i can both get jobs
And finally see what it means to be living.

you got a fast car. but is it fast enough so we can fly away? we gotta make a decision. we leave tonight or live and die this way. i remember we were driving driving in your car. the speed so fast i felt like i was drunk. city lights lay out before us. and your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder. and I had a feeling that i belonged. and I had a feeling I could be someone.

you got a fast car. but is it fast enough so we can fly away? we gotta make a decision. we leave tonight or live and die this way.


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last na,

I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE SHOWING OF THE LAKE HOUSE.

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Ay nga pala ..

Gusto ko rin yung marunong mag-luto. :)
Kasi hindi ako marunong eh.
Gusto ko magluluto siya para sa akin.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

hindi ba natin kayang dayain?


nandito nakaukit pa rin sa puso ko, nang sabihin mong wag na lang. nandito nakatatak pa rin sa isip ko, kung paano mong tinalikuran ang lahat.

kay bilis ba't umalis, nakakamiss na bigla lang. di ko man lamang nalaman na mawawala na bigla lang. di mo man lamang naisip na idahan-dahan. hindi ako sanay sa biglaan, unti unti na lang sanang nawala.

hindi ba natin kayang magkunwari, at sabihing sige na lang. hindi ba natin kayang dayain ang mga yakap sa tuwing lumalambing.


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Biglaan was the only song playing inside my head when i finally had the guts to tell you everything. it was really funny. 'cause if the story will ever be featured as a movie, Biglaan will be the most perfect song for the movie's main song whatever, you know, the song they'd probably use for the movie's trailer. And i think, it can also be the song playing at the most tear-jerking parts of the movie. :)

hahahaha. :))

waaaw. you are damn unbelievable.
hmm .. and im not saying its a good thing.


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it would be really nice to
have a boat ride away from all this. :)
and.. and.. go somewhere only we know.


waaaah. i wish tomorrow is June16.
i just can't wait.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

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Alex Burnham: Pick a place. I'll be there, I promise.

Alex Burnham: She's more real to me than anything I've ever known.

Kate Forster: Ridiculous. For argument's sake, what day is it there?
Alex Burnham: April 14th, 2004.
Kate Forster: No. It's April 14th, 2006.
Alex Burnham: It's the same day two years apart.

Kate Forster: Even though this is clearly impossible, it's amazing.

Alex Burnham: How's your sunset?
Kate Forster: It's perfect.
Alex Burnham: I only wish you were here to share it with me.

Kate Forster: One man I can never meet - him, I would like to give my whole heart to.

ARRRGH. CAN'T WAIT FOR THE 16TH.

Thursday, May 18, 2006

so yeah, its been a long time since i wrote something decent here. so, here goes one wasted entry.

...today's been different and weird. its been a total somersault. actually, these last few day have been malabo. hindi ko rin gets.

anyways, for some strange reason, my lower backs been hurting like hell. ive had this pain for a few months now. im not saying its been there all along. it just bursts out occasionally. and when i said occasionally, i meant whenever i do something stupid, which is all the time. so yeah.
but, eficascent oil works miracles. :)


i had this one goal when summer started. (no. not to exercise and lose some fat.) but to learn. the first step was to attend advance summer classes. but unfortunately, my dear parents didnt approve. so i was stuck inside our boxed-up house. i had nothing else to do. my mornings became a placid routine of sleep, eat and watch TV. and my nights became the official "kyla's time alone" ...what joy.

and if ever youre wondering what i did during those pleasant evening rides? well, i read my diaries. yes. i almost memorized most of my entries. thayre fun to read, you know. it was nice to reminisce and play a few memorable moments in my mind. its like a huge motion picture presenting the big me and my wild rollercoaster ride of life.

i was actually learning stuff from some of my pathetic entries. i saw the wrong turns i made. tsk.

and then the "learn from your experiences" line pops out. waaw. i wouldve never thought that i could actually grasp some sense out of my diaries. it was like a collection of the many experiences of this very inconsistent girl named kyla. there were good and bad ones, pleasant and overly depressing ones, joyful and sorrowful ones (baka meron ding light and glorious) and yeah some were just totally full of crap. i remember the first entry i made. it went back to March of 2004. and as my memory serves me, that first entry was pretty long for i had like 5 months of tale to write about.

well, its been fun learning from this new book that I, Kyla Erika Buenafe, have been writing. it feels like i can face the world and i can do anything! (but still some people will make you feel otherwise.) maybe this coming 3rd year of my high school life, a better kyla will arrive and will walk down the hall with her head held up high.

..grabe. nagpakamatay na pala. at isang ghost nalang ang naglalakad sa 3rd year corridor. ahahaha. good luck sa makakita. :) ok lng yan. im beautiful when im white.

im just saying.. my summer has been a blast. all though, it wasnt the kind of summer you guys had. but what the heck, i have my own standars for "fun" and "enjoyment" so just buzz off.

i sound like its almost the end of summer. hindi naman. excited lang ako pumasok. ;)

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maybe when the room is empty,
maybe when the bottles full,
maybe when the door gets broke down love can break in.

maybe when im done with thinking
maybe you can think me whole
maybe when im done with endings this can begin
this can begin.

if you could be my punk rock princess,
i would be your garage band king.
you could tell my why you just dont fit in,
and how your gonna be something.

maybe when your hair gets darker
maybe when your eyes get wide
maybe when the walls are smaller there will be more space.

maybe when im not so tired
maybe you can step inside
maybe when I look for things that i cant replace
i cant replace.

if you could be my punk rock princess,
i would be your garage band king.
you could tell my why you just dont fit in,
and how your gonna be something.

if i could be your first real heartache,
i would do it over again,
if you could be my punk rock princess,
you could be my heroin.

i never thought youd last
I never dreamed you would.
you watch your life go past
you wonder if you should.

If you should be my punk rock princess,
so I would be your garage band king.

you could tell my why you just dont fit in,
and how your gonna be something.
if i could be your first real heartache,
i would do it over again,
if you could be my punk rock princess,
you could be my heroin.

you know, you only burn my bridges.
you know, you just can't let it sink it.

you could be my heroine.

Punk Rock Princess
Something Corporate


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Something Corporate is LOVE. :)
and when she looks at me to scream,
tenenenenenennenenenn...


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Sunday, May 14, 2006

if you ran to the end of the earth
i would catch you and you would be safe
if you fell down a well
i would bring you a rope and take all of your pain
all the pain, all the pain
that you hide from me everyday

if youre missing i will run away
i will build a path to you
if you're missing i will run away
just to find myself in you

if i woke up alone i won't stop till i'll find you and you are with me
cause by now, i know you better than you know yourself
and i know what you really need
what you need, or i need
but either way this is where you should be
here with me, or ill bleed so much that you wont believe

if you're missing i will run away
i will build a path to you
if you're missing i will run away
just to find myself in you

you better not, you better not run
you better not, you better not run

if you're missing i will run away
i will build a path to you
if you're missing i will run away
i will find you
i will find you
i will find you

The Runaway
Something Corporate


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Something Corporate is LOVE. :)
you could be my punk rock princess.
i could be your garage band king.


just Something Corporate. :)

Saturday, May 13, 2006

BAD NEWS

so mom just gave me the worst possible news there is.

wow. :|
sa december na daw?
that's enough time to pack our bags.
*groooaaaaann* :'((

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

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and there they were, looking up into the cosmic sky, constanly searching for that one great beaming sun, as if it would actually smile to them, let them feel the tender warmth of its hurting rays.

and there they were, combing through the huge waves, as if expecting a great big blue whale to carry them to far off places, introduce them to all the meremen they could possibly meet along the way.

and there they were, with only jaw-dropping, head-turning guys walking past them, God only knows how every wisp of the wind blows of the silent prayer by which the answer would only be a mere touch of those hot ABS.

and there they were,

sitting, waiting for that huge huge plate of tinapa
and that oh-so-impeccable bowl of the sinful halo halo.

and there they were,
still
drooling.


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sa gitna nitong matinding kaguluhan
ang nasabi ko na lang ay:


i will try and discover.

like the discovery channel.


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FYI: some anonymous dude aka as "freakyfriam" is destroying mara's tagboard. and spontaneously, we talked about it. period.

mara bandioly: pero sino muna siya???
kyla buenafe: ewan. baka some dude.
mara bandioly: onga eh. grabe.
kyla buenafe: i used to do that to a freshman na totally ndi ko kilala! im so mean.
mara bandioly: am i that hateful???
kyla buenafe: ndi nmn. masaya madaming galit sayo.. parang.. it means, youre worth the fight.
kyla buenafe: maganda kaya un!
mara bandioly: galing ah!!!
kyla buenafe: dba?! totoo naman eh.
mara bandioly: yeah!!!apir!!!
kyla buenafe: kaya be happy pag may kaaway ka.
mara bandioly: you changed my life in a moment. haha
mara bandioly: ...and i'll never be the same again
kyla buenafe: awww. im touched. reeaally?
mara bandioly: its a song!!! roight?
mara bandioly: yeah!!!

its nice to know that i can help, for a change. lagi na lang ako yung tinutulungan eh. and its also nice to know, that i made sense for awhile .. :)

GO MARA! SHOW THAT FREAKY DUDE WHO'S THE BOSS!


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bow down parin ako sayo, kahit anong sabihin mo.

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umaga na pala.
patulugin mo na ako.

Monday, May 01, 2006

Conversations :)

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and there they were, looking up into the cosmic sky, constanly searching for that one great beaming sun, as if it would actually smile to them, letting them feel the tender warmth of its hurting rays.

and there they were, combing through the huge waves, as if expecting a great big blue whale to carry them to far off places, introducing them to all the meremen they could possibly meet along the way.

and there they were, with only jaw-dropping, head-turning guys walking past them, God only knows how every wisp of the wind blows of the silent prayer by which the answer would only be a mere touch of those hot ABS.

and there they were,

sitting, waiting for that huge huge plate of tinapa
and that oh-so-impeccable bowl of the sinful halo halo.

and there they were,
still
drooling.


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sa gitna nitong matinding kaguluhan
ang nasabi ko na lang ay:


i will try and discover.

like the discovery channel.


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FYI: some anonymous dude aka as "freakyfriam" is destroying mara's tagboard. and spontaneously, we talked about it. period.

mara bandioly: pero sino muna siya???
kyla buenafe: ewan. baka some dude.
mara bandioly: onga eh. grabe.
kyla buenafe: i used to do that to a freshman na totally ndi ko kilala! im so mean.
mara bandioly: am i that hateful???
kyla buenafe: ndi nmn. masaya madaming galit sayo.. parang.. it means, youre worth the fight.
kyla buenafe: maganda kaya un!
mara bandioly: galing ah!!!
kyla buenafe: dba?! totoo naman eh.
mara bandioly: yeah!!!apir!!!
kyla buenafe: kaya be happy pag may kaaway ka.
mara bandioly: you changed my life in a moment. haha
mara bandioly: ...and i'll never be the same again
kyla buenafe: awww. im touched. reeaally?
mara bandioly: its a song!!! roight?
mara bandioly: yeah!!!

its nice to know that i can help, for a change. lagi na lang ako yung tinutulungan eh. and its also nice to know, that i made sense for awhile .. :)

GO MARA! SHOW THAT FREAKY DUDE WHO'S THE BOSS!


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bow down parin ako sayo, kahit anong sabihin mo.