I come home from Batangas.

AND THIS IS WHAT I GET:
1. NAYA freaking RIVERA sang Songbird (originally by Fleetwood Mac) DAMN YOU NAYA. Why is your voice so full of awesomeness? I don't know why the writers of Glee chose this song for Santana to sing (although I have some speculations) but whatever, I just can't stop listening to Songbird. I'm so glad that they've given Santana another solo. Yeay.



For you, there'll be no more crying,
For you, the sun will be shining,
And I feel that when I'm with you,
It's alright, I know it's right

To you, I'll give the world
to you, I'll never be cold
'Cause I feel that when I'm with you,
It's alright, I know it's right.

And the songbirds are singing,
Like they know the score,
And I love you, I love you, I love you,
Like never before.

And I wish you all the love in the world,
But most of all, I wish it from myself.

And the songbirds keep singing,
Like they know the score,
And I love you, I love you, I love you,
Like never before, like never before.


2. Then Brittana promo stills explode on Tumblr. WAAH BRITTANA. ♥ I haven't even watched this week's episopde and now I'm seeing the promo stills for the next episode. Haha. You, Tumblr, you. You ruin my Glee watchclock. Haha.



3. Then I find out about Tina Fey's interview with Jimmy Fallon on May 5, then her hosting of SNL on May 7. OHMYGAAASH.

4. AND THEN!!!! NEW EPISODES FROM 30 ROCK AND GREY'S ANATOMY!


LIFE IS FREAKING GOOD.

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Internship.

Batangas was all heaps of everything.. Stress, excitement, fulfillment, perspiration, pig poop, sunshine, high temp, low temp...

After 3 weeks of lectures, assessments, cooking lessons and everything, before we went back to Manila, we all had a little bit of fun. :) Our batch rented a private villa (with a pool) as a sort of internship-ender celebration thingy.

It was one hell of a night.

We did a lot of enormous whirlpools we liked to call "Magic Circles" HAHA. The best one lasted for more or less 5 minutes! Everyone enjoyed it.

Plus the food! Haha. The food was good. Every barangay contributed one dish. My personal favorite was the Shanghai (Eskribano boys!). Damn that was good. :)

I think that our batch really bonded like super glue in this internship. I see a great future ahead for the batch. Kudos to our reps, Js Urias and Ate Anj. Kayo na ang magaling!



Batangas did more to me than to eat healthy and learn to savor dust during jeepney rides. This might sound like some "bola-bola" reaction paper shit, but really, Barangay Bulsa made me realize how much of a lucky girl I am. And how I've been selfishly complaining of things that I shouldn't really be caring about in the first place.

These people in Bulsa - they are so contented with what little they have. They live such simple lives that not being able to catch up on Tina Fey or any other series don't matter at all. They don't need cable to be happy, they don't need highspeed internet connection to be entertained, they just need to have food on their tables 3 times a day and to be with their family at all times.

This was the video I made for our Exit Report. It's crappy I know, but I just wanted it here for documentation purposes. :) They all clapped in the end naman eh, that's enough for me. Hihi.




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The only straight I am is straight up bitch.
-Santana Lopez (Naya Rivera)

Internship-ing at Batangas.

I'm attempting to create a video.
I will be using the song "Boston" as background music.
I'm hoping it would give our report the theatrical effect we want it to have.
And yes... I'm creating this post right now while downloading the song "Boston" via my trusty ol' SmartBro.

Yeah.

Peace-ing outing.

Sandali lang ah.

Pwedeng magbreakdown sandali?
Hindi ko gets kung bakit feeling ko I'm in on this alone.


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Lose your clothes, and show your scars.
That's who you are.

Tina Fey's Aha! Moment

Six years ago, I moved from Chicago to New York to work at Saturday Night Live. I packed up and was going through my things to see what I would take with me and what I’d leave behind. I found an orange folder—a regular school folder—in a bookshelf. As soon as I saw it, I knew what it was. There were quotes written all over the front of it. Some of them were: “Greet everything with ‘Yes, and… ‘” “Make statements instead of putting the burden on others with questions.” “Stay in the present, as opposed to focusing on the past or future.” “The fun is always on the other side of a yes.”

Years before, I was a student at Second City, an improvisational acting school in Chicago, and took a class with artistic director Martin de Maat. These quotes were some of the rules of improv he gave us. When I found the folder, I realized that taking that class had completely changed my life. It certainly sent me down a career path that I never would have ended up on otherwise. It also sent me down a personal path—my friends were all part of the improv community. My husband was a piano player at the ImprovOlympic, and we met there. All those rules and exercises defined us and our outlook on the world.

The things I learned in that class became part of the way I live my life. A couple of times I’ve been called on to do things—jobs or whatever—where I’ve felt, Maybe I’m not quite ready. Maybe it’s a little early for this to happen to me. But the rules are so ingrained. “Say yes, and you’ll figure it out afterward” has helped me to be more adventurous. It has definitely helped me be less afraid.

“We’re offering you a job here at Saturday Night Live—can you move here within a week?”

“Ummm, yes I can.”

“You know, you haven’t been here that long, but do you want to move up and try to be one of the head writers?”

Feeling completely terrified inside, but saying, “Uhhh, yes, okay, yes, for sure.”

“Do you wanna do ‘Weekend Update’ with Jimmy?”

Petrified. “Yes, thank you, of course!”

There are limits of reason to this idea of saying yes to everything, but when I meet someone whose first instinct is “No, how can we do that? That doesn’t seem possible,” I’m always kind of taken aback. Almost anyone would say, “It’s Friday at two in the morning. We don’t have an opening political sketch. We can’t do it.” Yeah, of course you can. There’s no choice. And even if you abandon one idea for another one, saying yes allows you to move forward.

Sitting on the floor of my Chicago apartment, I realized that the words on the folder had a broader use than just for improvising comedy. Life is improvisation. All of those classes were like church to me. The training had seeped into me and changed who I am.

Child naming.

I might just name my future baby "Callie" or "Arizona" or "Elizabeth" ...


Clearly my life has been taken over by fictional characters from American television.

Long Road Ahead

Grey's Anatomy Sneak Peek 7.19: It's a Long Way Back


I will forever love Callie and Arizona (aka Calzona)

It was a comforting feeling when Shonda Rhimes (GA headwriter or whatever) tweeted to the Calzona fandom that Callie and Arizona were "MFEO". I wouldn't be able to handle it if in the end, Calzona would just break up.

That's because I've been behind Calzona ever since... ever since that first bathroom kiss. They are like Tina and Bette (from The L Word), otherwise known as Tibette. I followed them - Calzona and Tibette. Episode per episode, both never failed to give me the gift of hope. Through their storylines, they imparted in me that glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel, knowing that one day, in some way, I would find my own Arizona or my own Bette.

I know it'll probably take a handful of fate, a ton of luck and bazillion pounds of prayer, but I still have that little ache inside, telling me that I shouldn't worry because she will come. There's someone out there, meant specifically and only for me.

I envy Calzona and Tibette, because (even if they're just fictional characters), amidst all the shit that they had to go through, they were still a "THEY" at the end. They weather through everything and after those 40-minute episodes, during the credits, we would still be calling them Calzona and Tibette because they were still together.

AND I WANT THAT.

Which is why I'm kind of immensely scared for my future because I know that my parents would take it kind of extremely hard to accept that I may be a lez. I've seen my mom irk intensely when she found out about her close girl friend having some sort of relationship with another girl. She would boo her friend and even if they've been friends since high-freaking-school, my mom TURNED AWAY from this friend. She couldn't accept her might-be-lesbian friend even with such a heavy history on their backs. I mean, what the heck?

I can't say with 100% confidence that I'm a lesbian, or whatever. I don't know myself. I may be Bi or this may be just a long loooong phase in this life of mine. I don't know yet. I mean, who knows really?

But the fact that I'm having these thoughts now puts "Kyla might become a true lesbian, inside or outside the closet" right on the board with a heading that says "WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS:". And I don't know if my parents would have the heart to agree to that.

I just don't know if I'm on the right track.

So what does the GA Sneak Peek have to do with all this lesbian drama? Well, it's just that I saw myself in Callie. Not the injury part, not the "I-cant-hold-my-baby" part. But I saw a future, I saw my possible future there. I saw myself, struggling, waving through problem after problem with a partner who will love me and will be with me no matter what.

But the hard thing there is, taking the situation I'm in right now, before I live my conflicted lesbian life, before I go through all the shit, I know that ahead of me, there will be a long road that I have to thread on first. A long... rocky, bumpy, treacherous road ahead: the struggle for acceptance.

And again, I just don't know if I'm on the right track.


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In a slightly related news, OHMYGOSH, THAT GA SNEAK PEEK MADE ME CRY :'( Callie struggling to be able to hold her baby.

And there's another sneak peek showing how Callie's incredibly heartbroken because she couldn't see nor hold her baby.
Oh Callie :'( It'll be okay. Arizona, Mark and everyone in Seattle Grace is there to support you. Just don't give up, okay?

Grabe, Kyla. Totoong tao si Callie?
Totoo, Kyla? Ha? Sigurado ka?!
AHAHAHA.

WEDDING IDEAS

I SO WANT THIS.

After The Wedding: The Married Life Infographic

I think this is really cute! You could use it as a late thank you card (for those of you who tend to procrastinate lol) or just to send out a year after the wedding to the people who attended.

From HERE

EEEP. I wanna plan my wedding already :)

Lynn Chn

Galing sa movie na Saving Face.


AT GRABE LANG.
KAMUKHANG-KAMUKHA NIYA SI Mae (yung sa TMQ church)!



Ohmygosh. Nagulat talaga ako.

Unang pagkalabas palang niya sa scene, sabi ko kaagad,
HOLY CRAP! SI MAE YAN, SURE AKO!
Pero siyempre hindi siya yun, kasi si Lynn Chn yung nasa movie.
Tsaka kasi nasa ibang malayong bansa ngayon si Mae actually.

Grabe talaga, pati boses, pareho!
WAAAAAAAAAH



My Mae dreams have been realized in this movie. Haha.

Hello there, Nagsasa Cove :>

We'll be on our way to Nagsasa Cove, Zambales this Friday, 4 am. (Yes, 4am) Dniel will be joining us, oh yeah, plus the usual, the Gabriels. Haha.

I'm so excited that I blogged about it already. Nyahahaha. So excited for myself.

Who says fat people can't strut their stuff?

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I CAN NOT HANDLE THIS TINA FEY EXPLOSION.
She's E.V.E.R.Y.W.H.E.R.E.

Bossypants book signing tour all over the US.
David Letterman interview
Oprah interview
Craig Ferguson interview
Ellen Degeneres interview
Conan Obrien interview

Huwaaaaaaaat.
The GIFs these people are making, I am dead now.


This is actually from an old Ellen interview.
I just love it so much :)


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Oh, and at one point this came up.



So yeah.
I'm just crying now.

BOSSYPANTS

BOSSYPANTS
By Tina Fey


GQ: You write about telling your daughter that people have "yellow" hair to fight the global blond conspiracy. My son's blond. Is he superior, or do you have to be a girl?

Tina Fey: Oh, it still carries some weight. I wouldn't even bother with him-he'll be fine. What color are his eyes?

GQ: Blue.

Tina Fey: Don't even teach him to read.

I LOVE HER. I JUST CAN'T EVEN! AGH.

Best thing in the world.

INCREDIBLE PROFESSIONAL PICTURES
OF LAST SATURDAY'S THE SCRIPT CONCERT :)





Photos by Jep Señir

CLICK HERE FOR MORE.

Still not over The Script.

SEE?
LAST NIGHT'S CONCERT WAS SO EPIC THAT EVEN CHICO GARCIA (Rx Monster Radio DJ) SHED A FEW TEARS!

LOOKIE HERE:
(From his blog: CHICO GARCIA'S BLOG)

"Of course my personal favorite of all their songs is “Talk You Down”, and as I sang (more like scream) out every note with all of my heart, I squirted a tear or two out of sheer overwhelmedness of the experience. I tried to swallow the lumps in my throat, but to no avail, as I sang: “Just a cigarette gone, no you couldn’t be that far, so I’m driving in my car where I hope you are. Maybe I can talk you down…” It was an emo-gasm!"

And he even took some amazing photos! :)











Epic, I say, EPIC.

Fuck shit, it's THE SCRIPT!

Whenever I watch foreign artists' concerts, I usually "prepare" myself beforehand. I listen to their songs, I try to sing along. And I charge my camera's batteries so I could take lotsa lotsa videos and blurry amateur pictures...

But unlike these concerts I attended.

JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE.
KATY PERRY.
PARAMORE.
DAVID COOK.
DAVID ARCHULETA.
JABAWOCKEEZ.
BACKSTREET BOYS.
KRIS ALLEN.
LADY GAGA.
BOYCE AVENUE.
DASHBOARD CONFESSIONALS.
PUSSYCAT DOLLS.

I didn't really "prepare" for The Script.

Why?
Because number one, I was really too busy to do anything else but plan, prepare and execute lectures for my internship in Batangas. Number two, I didn't feel the need to listen to The Script's songs for I already know their songs by freaking heart. Number three, I didn't charge our camera's batteries, because I decided not to bring ze camera, because I didn't want to concentrate on getting the right pictures, or taking videos of my most adored songs during the whole concert. I wanted to let The Script come into me. I wanted to focus. I wanted to breathe them in.

And number five, because I thought I was already prepared.
The keyword their is "I thought"

AND GUESS WHAT.
After all that.

Nothing... NOTHING PREPARED ME FOR WHAT HAPPENED JUST A FEW HOURS AGO.

The Script was too much for me. I haven't felt this much passion for any musician since Regine's concert back in 2006 (Twenty). I teared up FOUR times. And I'm not kidding. I really shed tears. REAL EFFING TEARS. After a few lines of their opening song, You Won't Feel A Thing, my eyes, they bled of warm tears, tears of undefined happiness.

They sang ALL of my favorite songs (sidenote: what I just said [or wrote] is kind of weird because I love ALL of the The Script's songs), and I just sang my heart out, I sang until I felt like my lungs couldn't take it any more. Wait, correction, I didn't "sing" per se, I actually shouted the lyrics.. like literally.

To hell with the people beside me who thought that I'm such a looney for acting like a crazy monkey, screw the fact that I watched The Script in awe ALONE, screw the fact that I was only sitting in the Upper Box B section.

SCREW YOU ALL, I WATCHED DANNY SING LIVE.
SCREW YOU ALL, I HEARD THE MOST AMAZING BAND EVER PERFORM.
SCREW YOU ALL, I SAW THEM LIVE ON STAGE... IN THE FREAKING FLESH.

I was (and still) so happy, I could die. And that's for real. I am serious. I can really just drop dead right here, RIGHT NOW.

My goodness. I just can't explain the euphoria I felt awhile ago. For a total of 90 minutes, I forgot all the shitty problems and frustrations I've mustered up this past few months.

I was totally unprepared for The Script.

And it was a blessing.

Dear The Script, I know I've said this a million times already, but please know that you own my heart COMPLETELY.

Love always,
Kyla. :)


The picture their staff took awhile ago.
The Script twitted this picture just a few minutes ago.



Their setlist:
You Won't Feel A Thing
Talk You Down
We Cry
If You Ever Come Back
Before The Worst
If You See Kay
End Where I Begin
Science and Faith
The Man That Can't be Moved
I'm Yours
Nothing
Dead Man Walking
Rusty Halo
For The First Time
Breakeven


PS: Danny is forever cute :)

PAKASAYA!

HELLO SUMMER ♥








With Waffles... *sniff sniff*


"Artistic"


Summer gangsta.


Start of something new --> Diet.






Galing ko noh? ;)

Note: SOBRANG dami pang ibang pictures.
Tinatamad lang ako kasi bagal ng net dito sa Taytay. :/


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WEEEEEEEEEEE.

ZAMBALES DAW KAMI SA HOLY WEEK!

OH YEAH!

Just to let you all know..

I'm starting with my Community internship today :)

I'll be leaving for Batangas later (6 in the freaking AM).

Even as we haven't stepped on the land of Barangay Bulsa, San Juan, Batangas, we already have so much work in line for us there and it will all be for the love of... plants.

Joke. For the love of my course (blech, can't believe I just said that.)

I'll be having my Community internship in Batangas for 3 weeks. Then the Drugstore internship at Healthfirst (near Edsa Central) for another 3 weeks.

Life is good.
Life is independence.
Yes to life.

ANYWAYS.

I've been watching a lot of lez movies lately.

Loving Annabelle
Fingersmith
Fresh Green Tomatoes

...And I'm downloading a couple more.

Gia
The Secret Diaries of Miss Anne Lister
Tipping the Velvet
High Art
Kissing Jessica Stein
The Gymnast
Monster
The Hours
When Night is Falling

HAHA.

I also downloaded the soundtrack of Loving Anabelle.
And it's like this:


In the space between what’s wrong and right,
You will find me waiting for you.
All your fortresses go down in the night.
To the dawn I’ll see you through.

‘Cause I know, that you know,
You’re all over me now.
And it’s clear, it will show,
Your curtains will close.
But if your heart is cold, my sheets are warm.
I will shelter you through the storm.
I will shelter you all through the storm

Reason #2324 why I love them.

♥


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Just because I think I look pretty here...
and sige na nga,
because I'll miss Clauds when she goes to Med school.

YOU GUYS.

Give me strength.
Love will keep us alive.


We'll get through this.

I'll get through this.

WHAT?!

...the WHAT!!!

WHY WOULD YOU PRIVATIZE YOUR BLOG. :|

Naya Rivera

You are killing me.



Reason why I started watching Glee.
(Just the 2 latest episodes, teehee,
BRITTANA!)


And I just found out about her tattoo on her right foot and also the fact that she's LEFT-HANDED. WAAAAAAAAH.

DEATH OF ME.


PS: I know there are hotter pictures of Naya all over Tumblr, but this picture.. It just spoke to me. Haha. Too cute.

Wedding Playlist

I am actually dying now.
Why?

Well.. It's because I have just downloaded a bunch of "I-wanna-cry-now-my-heart-can't-handle-this" songs. I got these songs from http://fuckyeahweddingideas.tumblr.com. They were the answers to the question:

"What song do you have in mind for your first dance as husband and wife?"

And wow. The songs. They are ♥.

I'm calling this playlist, "THE WEDDING PLAYLIST" \m/

Listening to each and every song warms my heart entirely. My chest now is like a heated oven with a turkey being roasted inside it on a Christmas Eve. OHYEAH.

Haaay.

Here are the songs, if you want to listen to some of them :)

Only A Fool - Black Crowes
Blue Jeans and White T-shirt - Gaslight Anthem
I Don't Want to Set the World on Fire - The Inkspots
All I Need - Christina Aguilera
First Day of My Life - Bright Eyes
Nothing Else Matters - Apocalypticas
Can't Help Falling In Love - Ingrid Michaelson
Sweet Avenue - Jets to Brazil.
You Save Me - Kenny Chesney
Then I Kissed Her - The Beach Boys
The Watson Twins - Just Like Heaven
Sparks - Coldplay.
L'Amore - Sonohra
Brown Eyed Girl - Van Morrison
Your Song - Elton John
No One's Gonna Love You - Band of Horses
Stand by Me - Ben E. King
When You Say Nothing at All - Keith Whitley
Marry Song - Band of Horses
At Last - Etta James
Sunshine of Your Love - Cream.
You and I - Ingrid Michaelson
Jack Johnson - Better Together
Lives Entwined - Matthew Mayfield
Always - Swithchfoot
Unchained Melody - The Righteous Brothers.
God Only Knows - The Beach Boys
My Favourite Book - Stars
Giving You The Best That I've Got - Anita Baker
When I'm 64 - The Beatles
Can't Take My Eyes Off of You - Frankie Valli
Light A Roman Candle With Me by Fun
Always Forever by Phil Wickham
We're Going to be Friends - The White Stripes
Eight Days A Week - The Beatles
Everything - Michael Buble
I Will Follow You Into the Dark - Death Cab for Cutie
Are You Gonna Kiss Me or Not - Thompson Square
Your Everything - Keith Urban
You Had Me At Hello - A Day to Remember.
The Luckiest - Ben Folds

Download any and prepare to lose all hesitations to cry. :)


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So I just saw Burlesque.

At first I didn't wanna watch it ('cause of Cher), but then KRISTEN BELL. *jaws dropped, eyes popped*

OKAY! SO THEN I DOWNLOADED IT IMMEDIATELY. Haha!

Kinda disappointed though that Kristen Bell's character didn't have so much of a plot there but I'm happy to see shake her groove thing ... Oh life.

AND OHEMGEE, CHRISTINA AGUILERA SO THIN AND HER MAD VOCALS ARE (still) MAD.


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EARTH HOUR ONCE AGAIN!
Let's all participate.

Earth Hour 2011: 8.30pm, Saturday 26 March.

"This Earth Hour, go beyond the hour with a commitment to a positive action for the planet and celebrate that commitment with the people of the world by switching off your lights for Earth Hour 2011."
(text from HERE)


I WANT AN EARTH HOUR SHIRT! :'(